Its not even about weight loss, its about changing my patterns. I get upset and I eat, I have a bad day and I eat, I have nothing real to do so I sit and eat...its a bad habit, even when eating good Atkins-friendly foods.

What I want more than anything, even more than fitting into my wedding dress, is to be a healthy weight...a healthy body...an active life...an inspiration for my future children. My mother is overweight and I know that part of that is why I am also overweight, she taught me bad habits. Its mostly my own fault. I know what I do wrong and I still do it.

So, from here forward I will spend at least 30 minutes a day being active. I will spend 1 hour a day, 3 days a week weight lifting, and I will spend an hour each day doing self-guided meditation or hypnosis for weight loss, as well as listen to a great podcast series on keeping weight loss more permanent.

I have to break my cycles, otherwise it will never get better, no matter how long I live a low-carb lifestyle.