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Hi everyone!
Just wanted to share. I am on atkins -- I have 40 lbs to lose after a painful eating disorder. I was anorexic, then binged for 6 months and gained 60 lbs. Yikes.
I feel like I am making such headway in terms of normalizing my relationship with food. And as many thoughts as I have --- such as "I MUST lose this weight" or "WHEN will this weight come off!" --- I feel as though I am broaching a new arena of self acceptance and transforming my self-care.
Simply put, I obsess about food/restrict food/binge to feel a sense of control in a world where there is lots of uncertainty. And for me to implement atkins in my life, and successfully normalize my weight, I have to develop some NEW TOOLS to replace what food used to "do" for me.
Here is what I am taking on:
-When I am upset, angry, scared or lonely --- calling a friend and sharing my feelings
-When my head is trash talking my body and my self -- repeating positive affirmations to redirect my thinking -- "I am safe and secure, "God made me perfectly, I am not a mistake," "I am beautiful and strong," etc
-Meditating regularly to stay focused and positive
-Renewing my commitment to attend 12 step meetings regularly (I have 6 years clean and sober, and lately my attendance at meetings has been lacking) -- and build relationships with people there
-TAKING CARE OF MYSELF --- sleeping enough, brushing my teeth, taking my vitamins, going to checkups at doctors, quitting smoking
I have never had a plan of eating that was so AWESOME as Atkins. I am committed to stick with it -- to plough through all my old behaviors and create new healthy ones.
And in the meantime ---- accepting my body just as it is. Losing weight isnt going to "solve" any problems. What I really want is a healthier sense of my body, a better way to handle uncomfortable feelings, and a sense of peace. As I work on THAT -- my weight will fall into place.
xo
E
Just wanted to share. I am on atkins -- I have 40 lbs to lose after a painful eating disorder. I was anorexic, then binged for 6 months and gained 60 lbs. Yikes.
I feel like I am making such headway in terms of normalizing my relationship with food. And as many thoughts as I have --- such as "I MUST lose this weight" or "WHEN will this weight come off!" --- I feel as though I am broaching a new arena of self acceptance and transforming my self-care.
Simply put, I obsess about food/restrict food/binge to feel a sense of control in a world where there is lots of uncertainty. And for me to implement atkins in my life, and successfully normalize my weight, I have to develop some NEW TOOLS to replace what food used to "do" for me.
Here is what I am taking on:
-When I am upset, angry, scared or lonely --- calling a friend and sharing my feelings
-When my head is trash talking my body and my self -- repeating positive affirmations to redirect my thinking -- "I am safe and secure, "God made me perfectly, I am not a mistake," "I am beautiful and strong," etc
-Meditating regularly to stay focused and positive
-Renewing my commitment to attend 12 step meetings regularly (I have 6 years clean and sober, and lately my attendance at meetings has been lacking) -- and build relationships with people there
-TAKING CARE OF MYSELF --- sleeping enough, brushing my teeth, taking my vitamins, going to checkups at doctors, quitting smoking
I have never had a plan of eating that was so AWESOME as Atkins. I am committed to stick with it -- to plough through all my old behaviors and create new healthy ones.
And in the meantime ---- accepting my body just as it is. Losing weight isnt going to "solve" any problems. What I really want is a healthier sense of my body, a better way to handle uncomfortable feelings, and a sense of peace. As I work on THAT -- my weight will fall into place.
xo
E