2nd day

[lisadallasr]

hi everyone, i just want to post to check in sorry if i do this daily it will help me though to be honest. i did pretty good yesterday for my first day on induction, i did get some pretty bad cravings last night though for some cereal but i did not give in and this morning those cravings were gone, i know it will take a couple of days for them all to go away, that the first few days are the hardest.

I had my husband take pics of me with just panties and bra for i can keep for myself to see progress, man i look terrible it depressed me a little, i dont see that same person with clothes on, i feel im attractive not gorgeous but attractive man but those pics yesterday made me feel fat and disgusting, my husband gets upset with me because i am my biggest enemy but i cant help it, i have always been hard on myself, i have this dream that everything would be better if i was smaller i know that probally is not true but that is how i feel at the moment. im so mad at myself because when i did atkins for the very first time which was 3yrs ago i lost a good bit of weight and now i have gained that back just to lose again.

i have got to do this, for one i feel as though im not going to live if i dont to see my kids grow up, for two my self esteem is horrible, my husband loves me and is such a sweetheart but sometimes i wonder how he can love me when i have a hard time loving myself with where im at, i hate being overweight but i love to eat isnt that something, i have noticed since i have been putting on more weight i have become a little on the depressed side i hate going anywhere for one i have hardly anything that fits me anymore and i just feel like blah, i compare myself to everyone which i hate because i want to change so bad but sometimes i have the hardest time letting go of that addiction to food, i eat when im not hungry to feel good and i take that food away and i get mad its crazy to me like a crack addict or something i dont know i just feel sometimes i have no control, i do good for months and then i throw it out the window.

I know im just rambling but it was some things on my mind, i wish i could just move some of you guys in with me lol to be my backbone when im not feeling so strong, which i feel right now so im good to go, i just pray i have this same strength in a month from now that is when i need it.

[hey_nelson]

Re: 2nd day

Nah, you're not rambling hun, you are venting, sharing, and then reading what you wrote and learning from yourself.
You have taken the first steps already; the photos, the self assesment. Your self esteem will take on another nature when you allow it to and if you are berating yourself, how can you allow your esteem to grow? Take this new lifestyle on a day at a time (like you did before). The only thing we have to worry about for tomorrow is our preparation of food. Don't wait till the last minute to prepare your meals for tomorrow. That one gets me messed up every time.
Like other have said before, go to fitday and log in daily, get your exercise and your water.
This place is great. There is so much support here and KNOWLEDGE. You can do this.
patty

[BenandHallesMom_1]

Re: 2nd day

You are off Lisa to a great start! I'm so proud of you for not giving in to that cereal! Something interesting I wanted to share about food addiction...Have you seen Super Size Me? That guy who ate nothing but McDonald's for 30 days? It was interesting the relationship that developed between him and food over that 30 days. He got so depressed when he wasn't eating and as soon as he put that food in his mouth...he felt great and happy again. I truly believe we have a huge hurdle to overcome as far as control but if you make healthy choices and live a healthy lifestyle, those cravings and emotions will subside enough for you to take the control! You can do this! I predict that not only will you feel better physically, but emotionally as well. Hang in there girl!!

[Tracie515]

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We are moved in with you. All you have to do is log on when you are weak and we can help you to stay strong. You never know someone might need you someday to keep them strong. See Ya online.