Hi, I'm new here! OK, not really, but I am starting over

[cleochatra]

I am in a real personal crisis right now.

No, it's not a bad hair day (which is everyday so a good hair day would be an anomaly, along with guud speleling).

I have fallen so off of the wagon over the last 2 weeks because of incredible amounts of stress. Having to sell a house, sell a bunch of household things, volunteer, run a cub scout pack, have hubby be gone a lot to Colorado and be involved in a local election is really really starting to get to me right now.

In short, I've eaten some pizza, some french fries, s'mores, Diet Coke, Diet Coke, Diet Coke and a couple of Dairy Queen Blizzards over the last week and a half. I know I can't do that, either! I've done so well up until now, and now I'm such a stinkerhead about eating properly.

I'm really very disappointed in myself. I really need to just start over again, but I don't know how to just start over again.

I feel that with all that's happening right now I have no control over anything in my environment and it's really starting to burn my bloomers.

So I'm starting here.

Hi! My name is Jamie and I am a fatty fatso. I am addicted to carbs and and I need to start over again.

Please send some butt glue my way!

Sorry for the ramble but I'm seriously mad at me right now. Bad me! Bad, bad me!

Thank you for listening. :raving

[Katlam]

Jamie-- :hug :hug moving is the pits. On top of everything else, you have a busy life. <hands jamie the glue> here ya go, stick on girl and chill with us hanging on the back of the wagon until you get organized.

Kathy

[Miss Phode]

Hey Jamie, I lurk more often than I post, but I wanted to let you know what an inspiration you have been to me. I remember a few weeks ago (maybe it was longer), someone saying you were approaching a 100 pound loss. And now you're beyond that. Don't throw away all your hard work. You've done so well so far, and you've been an inspiration and encouragement to many. Also, don't be too hard on yourself. We are not perfect. We can only do our best. Moving is tough. I moved across the country 6 months ago. Just hang in there, ok? :hug

Teresa ha

[fancypantstomatch]

LOL Today I found myself having bought my son some cookies, so I tried one (had to show him that they are good so he'll eat them, right?) He handed his back to me, so I had to eat that one too, right? I reached for another and ate it quickly......

I froze. I took the whole package and threw them in the trash, I had to dump them literally in the trash, I couldn't just toss the package, I took them out of their packaging so I wouldn't be tempted to fish a few out later (yes, at my lowest points I've done it). Then it occured to me, I am an addict. I will do anything for a fix.

In short, I know how you feel. YOu've come so far, and don't beat yourself up, you're only human, and a damn fine one [if I may say so]. Just take it one bite at a time. It took me three cookies before I realized what had happened.

Hugs to you :hug

PS Were you selling a car and a stove (or something) on For Sale in Johnson County? I saw it a while back, right after you announced you were moving and never got around to asking you.

[sidrah]

Hi!!

If I had some glue, I would share. I kind of feel like I am in the same boat and one of the only things that makes me realize it isn't completely helpless is seeing that others, you among them, can do what I think is impossible. You have to keep going, so I know what to look forward to for me. :icondance


Seriously, though, I would hate to see you go back knowing you are so happy where you are now and will be heading, eventually. I know it is hard even when you know the plan and can follow it with no troubles. What I did to start over was to jsut haev one meal a day that I knew in my head was not so great (carb wise). But, by the end of the week, I was back to what I knew I should have. In the midst of the screw ups I still found myself losing inches. That shocked me.

I'll make you a deal. You pick a day to start over for real and I will do it with you. Really, who knows but yourself what you do. But, I just hate the thought of anyone looking back in a year and saying, "What if...?"

Don't look back with regret, I try to think. Easier said than done, though.

You know all the right words adn thigns to do. Be like Nike- Just do it! :yes

[Laurenfra]

Jamie, I understand the feeling of being out of control. You can be in control of your eating. Make a menu for the up coming week and follow it. Not having to think about what or when to eat will take some stress off.
I lost 70 lbs before we moved to Texas I put it on moving out here. It would have been a lot easier to stick to a WOE then trying to take it all off again. I am here for you sister., :hug

[divaindubai]

POST HERE IF CLEO IS AN INSPIRATION TO YOU AS WELL!

Dear Cleo
I just joined this forum, but you really are an inspiration to myself to lose this damn weight ! lol Your posts are always bubbly and I know you can get back on track again and lose the rest of your weight that you want to lose!

But I know how stress can be with food cravings, etc.... just try your hardest to stay with the plan and not cheat, until things settle down.

You Can do it!!
:icondance :icondance :joy :joy :nod :guns

[latte]

Hi Jamie...Hang in there...and remember the only thing you can control is yourself....

[MotherNature]

Jamie....I so understand where you are coming from right now. We both have done so well on this wol and have been in control of our eating for many months and lost loads of weight. And then.... you fall off. All you have to do is get back on the wagon, right???? Wrong. Suddenly you are out of control and find yourself stuffing your face with food that you would never have dreamed of eating a few months ago. You want to stop but you can't seem to work up the willpower that you once had. You keep telling yourself that you'll start back on a clean induction tomorrow, but it keeps being tomorrow, never today. I have fought so very hard over the last 3 months to just maintain my loss. I keep telling myself that as long as I don't gain back any of the weight I lost I still have a chance of picking back up where I left off. But I can't seem to motivate myself to start back and I just keep maintaining. I know we can both do it. We have done it before, right??. So let's try to start today with just one day of clean eating and go from there. I'll try if you will.

Cathy

[cleochatra]

I am such an uber-hypocrite being a moderator, losing almost 110 pounds and then ordering pizza knowing I planned to eat it. How awful!

OK, sidrah and Mother nature, today we're back on induction! (Well, I was last night after the pizza, but you know what I mean). Does that work for you guys? The nice thing asbout Atkins is knowing that as soon as you hop back on that wagon, in 48-72 hours you're back to burning fat again.

I'm still drinking Diet Coke and will have to wean off of that slowly (again). I'll be honest. I'm addicted to the stuff. I need to get back to drinking my oregano water. I love that stuff.

I am back on plan, though. I like to eat this way. I'm never hungry. So the mess ups are all the worse, in my thoughts! Like fancypants, all it takes is one little thing and then all of a sudden I go into a food frenzy and start eating everything even though I'm not hungry. I don't even LIKE cheesepuffs!

Please forgive me the screwups. I still have so much weight to lose. I can't afford to go back now!

Thanks for the positive vibes! I really am humbled by the nice things you've said. I will live up to them!

{{{Kat}}} Thank you for sending me the positive happy vibes! You're right. I just need to organize the chaos. Did I mention the house goes on the market on June 1st? *nervous tittering laughter*

{{{Aphex}}} Whoa! I've seen you around, too! You don't have a lot to say but when you do, you are the sweetest! Thanks so much for letting me know you've had to deal with a big move! It helps put things in perspective. I appreciate very much your kind words. :hug

{{{Fancy}}} That's not my stuff for sale. I'm in Collin County! Thanks for sharing your story. You're the bomb, girl!
*hip bump*

{{{sidrah}}} Man I hate those "what ifs". You're right. It's better I smack myself in the head today over this last week than smack myself in the head in a month from now when I've lost all control and have gained a lot back and lost everything I've worked for. I'm back on track now! How's the treadmill? You with me? I'm committed this time. I've got to be.

{{{lauren}}} OK, you scared me straight. I can't afford to do that. There's no excuse for me to not lose weight when I have so much to do for this move. Thank you! I didn't think about it, but at times like these weight gain can creep in without me even thinking about it. A pizza here while packing boxes and a Blizzard there while interviewing realtors and the next thing you know I'm back to looking like Jabba the Hut's ugly kid sister.

{{{Diva}} }Thank you for your generous comments! I appreciate the happy vibes! I need to just get it done. We'll make it!

{{{latte}}} How right you are. You said in so few words what makes so much sense. With all the nuttiness happening now, the ONE thing I can control is what I eat. BAM. Clarity. Thank you.

{{{Cathy}}} Girl, I'm not even able to tell you how true your words are ringing right now, but they're ringing! You said:

You want to stop but you can't seem to work up the willpower that you once had. You keep telling yourself that you'll start back on a clean induction tomorrow, but it keeps being tomorrow, never today.

Wow. Hello, my name is cleochatra and I'm a member of Justified Cheats Anonymous with committment issues 101 on the side. And even when I get right back on track, that doesn't mean I can't justify the french fries 2 days down the road. When I'm clean off of the junk foods I can reason. When I'm still in a carb fog, I never make it clean out of the fog to say, "D'OH! I fell for it!" The problem is making it out of the fog. I've got to do that. I'll get close. I'll make it three days and them I've eaten a donut. Then I'll say, "I'll have some oatmeal. That's healthy." Riiiiiight. In some ways that's as bad as the donut as far as my blood sugar is concerned. I've even given thoughts to going back to low-fat eating. And why? Because I want to feel vindicated for eating the donut. Because I know that on Atkins even though I've never wanted the donut, I need the donut. I don't need the donut! It's all irrational, which makes it really really surreal and bizarre. Does any of this make any sense?

OMG, I'm rambling like my Jewish father G-d rest his soul. :joy

Anyway, I'm going to kick Diet Coke as soon as I make it through this first week, and I'm already upping my water consumption to make me crave the soda less (the more hydrated I am the less I crave the Diet Coke).

Okeedokee Artichokees! I'm done talking. I have to go touch up some shutters.

And my realtor is telling me he wants to see silk flower arrangements in my house. I'm like, Who died and made him the Jose Eber of the home staging world?

[elsa2004]

Cleo, I was in exactly the same boat as you are in now. Except my straying from this WOE lasted 5 whole months :no , In that time I managed to gain back 12 pounds. Originally I was just going to skim through the holidays, and get right back on in January. (I will not make that mistake again. )Well, that didn't happen. I hate the thought of having to lose those 12 pounds again, but I'm going to do it. I re-started May 2nd, and have lost 6 pounds so far. I can't tell you how much better I feel. To see the scale going back down instead of up,up, up. If I can do it, so can you! I know it. Luckily, I've never had "induction flu", it was like the minute I started eating right, I felt so much better overall. Best wishes to you on a clean, healthy induction.

[maribelle]

Cleo dahhhhhhhling! You are not going to let yourself keep doing this. You're going to take 5 minutes, and spend that 5 minutes staring at your before picture, and your after picture. MotherNature is going to do the same thing, aren't you Mother? :yes You're going to meditate on the differance between those two pictures, and remember how you felt back then, and how you feel now. Think about the way people treated you back then, and the way they treat you now. Feel the confidence returning? Both of you can do this! You found the strength before, you'll find it again. I just returned from 4 whole months off this woe, and it feels GREAT to be back. It's a little piece of your life that you have under control, and it will give you all the energy you need to deal with all that stress....ok? You're rays of sunshine on the ADBB, and we want our sunshine to stay strong and healthy! Now...back away from the blizzards with your hands up!! :guns

[mandimar]

Jamie - you aren't bad, just human! You have some huge changes going on in your life right now! I know they (the so-called "experts" who publish endless books on self-improvement, business, relationships, child rearing, etc., etc., etc., . . . ) say that change is a good thing, but coping with the havoc that it wreaks emotionally and physically is not an easy thing. That stress is not something that anyone would expect you to be immune to! Maybe this would be a good time to focus on maintaining the wonderful success you have achieved so far? Move into OWL or Maintenance until things calm down and you can focus on you again. Let the indulgence be something that is actually good for you instead of a Blizzard (what an evil concoction - truly inspired by Satan himself)? Please don't let all of that hard work be for nothing!

We love ya! :hug

[bizzlekitty]

Welcome back!

You can do it and we're all here for you. It's especially hard when we got alot of RL things going on, but I hope this is a good learning lesson and motivator for you.

I think we all have these little lapses now and again, especially us in CC since we have such a long journey. It's okay, as long as you come back!

And do get off the diet Coke, I think it really encourages you to drink/eat more, and it lessens your desire for water.

And don't be afraid to eat fast food/restaurants when you get real busy. That's what i do and I have found a good amount of Atkins-acceptable foods in pretty much every place I go.

[jroche5998]

Wow, I started a trend.