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After I weighed this morning and discovered that I was down to 200, I came back to the bedroom and told my husband.
I was expecting him to give me a good ol' cheer and congratulations, but was suprised instead. "I thought you had gotten to 200 a long time ago," he said, "you are so positive all the time and so focussed on the present that I was sure you had already reached that goal."
I suddenly realized that this time around, I have been absolutely focussed on how I am feeling right now. Not where I am going, and how long it is taking, and "when will I get to X weight". I don't look at fitday to see how many lbs I have to lose per week to make my goal weight by December 30. When I look at the weight loss graph, it's to see where I am NOW in relation to where I STARTED, not where I am going. Aside from reflecting a bit on how the scale can be slow the second time around, I haven't been comparing last time's progress with this time's progress in a negative way.
I think that I have spent most of my life looking to the future. "When I am thin again, i will quit smoking." (shut up, Lauren, I'm not joining your quitters team! lol). "When we have X amount in savings, I will buy Y." "Next summer, we will....." "As soon as this is over, I will be able to....."
For the last 10 weeks, I've been living ENTIRELY in the moment. I think it started with Atkins, but it has extended through my whole life!
I feel fabulous. I have energy, a sense of well-being, joy in the little things in life, appreciation for where I am and what I've got, and I'm in NO HURRY to do anything (except change the litterboxes, which I am going to do as soon as I'm done with this post!)
So, yeah. I've lost 18 lbs. I'm at the Big 200. I'm going to start OWL. I'm exactly where I am supposed to be, and I'm not sweating it at ALL!
I was expecting him to give me a good ol' cheer and congratulations, but was suprised instead. "I thought you had gotten to 200 a long time ago," he said, "you are so positive all the time and so focussed on the present that I was sure you had already reached that goal."
I suddenly realized that this time around, I have been absolutely focussed on how I am feeling right now. Not where I am going, and how long it is taking, and "when will I get to X weight". I don't look at fitday to see how many lbs I have to lose per week to make my goal weight by December 30. When I look at the weight loss graph, it's to see where I am NOW in relation to where I STARTED, not where I am going. Aside from reflecting a bit on how the scale can be slow the second time around, I haven't been comparing last time's progress with this time's progress in a negative way.
I think that I have spent most of my life looking to the future. "When I am thin again, i will quit smoking." (shut up, Lauren, I'm not joining your quitters team! lol). "When we have X amount in savings, I will buy Y." "Next summer, we will....." "As soon as this is over, I will be able to....."
For the last 10 weeks, I've been living ENTIRELY in the moment. I think it started with Atkins, but it has extended through my whole life!
I feel fabulous. I have energy, a sense of well-being, joy in the little things in life, appreciation for where I am and what I've got, and I'm in NO HURRY to do anything (except change the litterboxes, which I am going to do as soon as I'm done with this post!)
So, yeah. I've lost 18 lbs. I'm at the Big 200. I'm going to start OWL. I'm exactly where I am supposed to be, and I'm not sweating it at ALL!
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