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i've been a bad, bad girl
Man, I know better than this, but I let a man influence my behavior AGAIN. Suffice to say that I was so upset about what my ex is doing (he's trying to become friends with all my friends) and the thought that I'd no longer have ANYONE to call a friend if he did that, that I just lost it and didn't start back up again.
It isn't that we can't have the same friends, it's just that he wants me back and I think he's doing it so that I'll see him more often just cuz he'll be around. Thing is, I want my OWN life WITHOUT him, so that means I probably won't go to things he's at. My choice, yes, but whatever. In any case, I FREAKED out and got all depressed and unhappy.
Then, I got my head out of my @$$ and called some other people that he doesn't know at all, and ended up having a fantastic weekend. Even went camping. I didn't bother trying to restart though because I was at a bbq friday, tailgate saturday, and camping sunday and monday and it just didn't seem at ALL likely that i was going to eat right much less not have any alcohol at all.
So, anyway, here I am. Fatter but happier. Heh. I'm not going to weigh myself, I"m just gonna get back down to it tomorrow. I'd say tonight but I don't really plan on eating anything else today. ;-) I'm making my quiche tonight, and will be making chicken too i think.
Anyway, I'm sorry I"ve been gone and I'm sorry for falling off the wagon.
It isn't that we can't have the same friends, it's just that he wants me back and I think he's doing it so that I'll see him more often just cuz he'll be around. Thing is, I want my OWN life WITHOUT him, so that means I probably won't go to things he's at. My choice, yes, but whatever. In any case, I FREAKED out and got all depressed and unhappy.
Then, I got my head out of my @$$ and called some other people that he doesn't know at all, and ended up having a fantastic weekend. Even went camping. I didn't bother trying to restart though because I was at a bbq friday, tailgate saturday, and camping sunday and monday and it just didn't seem at ALL likely that i was going to eat right much less not have any alcohol at all.
So, anyway, here I am. Fatter but happier. Heh. I'm not going to weigh myself, I"m just gonna get back down to it tomorrow. I'd say tonight but I don't really plan on eating anything else today. ;-) I'm making my quiche tonight, and will be making chicken too i think.
Anyway, I'm sorry I"ve been gone and I'm sorry for falling off the wagon.
Started 08/29/05
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