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This is how much in the present I am living:
When I started this woe for the nth time, I posted several times about how it wasn't going to feel REAL until I hit 200 lbs. For some reason, that point had meaning for me. I had gotten down to about 184 previously, so it's not as though the magic 2-0-0 meant that I was back where I stopped last time - it was just symbolic in some unknown way.
So in a way, that was my mini-goal. The point where I would start to feel like I was having success.
So last Sunday, I hit 200. And I didn't even THINK about it much, except to be happy that I was there. I didn't realize that I had met my mini-goal. I didn't realize that 10 weeks ago, this number on the scale was when I was going to feel like I was "succeeding."
Somewhere along the way, as I began to live more and more in the NOW, and not focussing on where I would like to be what with "if only's" and "when I, then I.....", my exact current weight stopped mattering! Wherever I am, there I am!
Now that I've finally registered all of this, I find that I am intensely interested in staying this way..........
When I started this woe for the nth time, I posted several times about how it wasn't going to feel REAL until I hit 200 lbs. For some reason, that point had meaning for me. I had gotten down to about 184 previously, so it's not as though the magic 2-0-0 meant that I was back where I stopped last time - it was just symbolic in some unknown way.
So in a way, that was my mini-goal. The point where I would start to feel like I was having success.
So last Sunday, I hit 200. And I didn't even THINK about it much, except to be happy that I was there. I didn't realize that I had met my mini-goal. I didn't realize that 10 weeks ago, this number on the scale was when I was going to feel like I was "succeeding."
Somewhere along the way, as I began to live more and more in the NOW, and not focussing on where I would like to be what with "if only's" and "when I, then I.....", my exact current weight stopped mattering! Wherever I am, there I am!
Now that I've finally registered all of this, I find that I am intensely interested in staying this way..........
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