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    How I feel...

    This song, by Mercy Me, pretty much sums up how I have been feeling as of late. I have not posted in a few weeks because, well, I don't know why. For the first time in nearly 14 months I can honestly say I have fallen off the band wagon. It wasn't until I tried to drop from maint. into induction again did I have a problem. My fortitude, will, and strength disappeared. I have eaten things that I wouldn't have even looked at twice before. Things that didn't even taste good. Why? Because it made me miserable, and I have not felt like I deserve to be happy. I keep telling myself that I will be stronger tomorrow, and sometimes I make it through a day, sometimes. WTF is wrong with me? I am not a weak person. I am angry with myself for not being able to do this. I can do anything I set my mind to, and my mind is set... only my heart won't follow. I don't understand...

    Another rainy day
    I can't recall having sunshine on my face
    All I feel is pain
    All I wanna do is walk out of this place
    But when I am stuck and I can't move
    When I don't know what I should do
    When I wonder if I'll ever make it through

    I gotta keep singing
    I gotta keep praising Your name
    Your the one that's keeping my heart beating
    I gotta keep singing
    I gotta keep praising Your name
    That's the only way that I'll find healing

    Can I climb up in Your lap
    I don't wanna leave
    Jesus sing over me
    I gotta keep singing

    Can I climb up in Your lap
    I don't wanna leave
    Jesus sing over me
    I gotta keep singing

    Oh You're everything I need
    And I gotta keep singing

    - Tom
    Male / 5'10.5" / 31 years old - Start Weight: 330 lbs. - Current Weight: 173.8 lbs.

    Total loss to date: 160(ish) lbs.

    ...but you be strong and do not lose courage, for there is reward for your work. -- Chronicles 15:7
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  • #2
    Re: How I feel...

    Aw, honey.................

    You sound really really DEPRESSED. Did this come on suddenly, or did you sort of sink into it?

    I'm glad you came back to post, because you need support and we are here for you. But you should ALSO be talking to your minister or your doctor about this. Or both. You don't need to feel this way without getting some support in the real world, too!

    What have you been doing besides feeling bad? You still working, and how is that going? What about your social life?
    Started Atkins 2d time 6/20/05
    218/187/140
    Measuring every 2 weeks
    As of 10/31/05, losta total of 56.75 inches!



    Minimum 45 min cardio per day

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    • #3
      Re: How I feel...

      {{{Tom}}} You know, I've been wondering about you lately, and I was sure you were just too busy to visit!

      It is uber-tough going from maintenance back into induction. Why did you do that, sweetie? You've been doing really well in pre-maintenance.

      Let us know what's eating you. Anything in particular happen lately that's bummed you out? Usually these things are event-oriented to some degree!

      If you need a swift kick to the butt, I'be just took RationalBeing out in a weight loss competition. I have a man's metabolism, but a woman's sensibilities and sympathy. I can kick you in the butt too, if you need a friend who is well-versed in planting her shoe up your hinder.

      Let us know what's happening. You know you deserve to be happy. So why you think you don't is an issue you'd better get to addressing now.

      I HIGHLY recommend (and don't look at me that way) Dr Phil's Weight Loss Solution. But it used at amazon.com. It discusses the psychological reasons we are doomed to be fat if we don't change our thinking.

      Read this book. Get it from the library. Work through the chapters. If you even wish, we'll start a reading group right here in this forum.

      I've been dying to dig through this book with friends anyway.

      Until then, just keep the faith, know you are loved, and please let us know what's wrong. There are no judgements here!Just good friends.
      ADBB Moderator Emeritus
      My blog: The Lighter Side of Low Carb: Food, fun and fidgeting
      Low Carb Lolitas: Hip low carb bloggers

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      • #4
        Re: How I feel...

        I'm just so happy to see youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

        *tackle and noogies*


        OK. Sorry.
        ADBB Moderator Emeritus
        My blog: The Lighter Side of Low Carb: Food, fun and fidgeting
        Low Carb Lolitas: Hip low carb bloggers

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        • #5
          Re: How I feel...

          I hopr you are feeling better. If there is anything I can do to help, please feel free to PM. Here is a big hug for you.

          Female/married/40
          Restart date 3/1/06
          Beginning wt. 290, Restart wt. 270/ cw259/gw 175







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          • #6
            Re: How I feel...

            I gotta keep singing
            I gotta keep praising Your name
            Your the one that's keeping my heart beating
            I gotta keep singing
            I gotta keep praising Your name
            That's the only way that I'll find healing
            Who am I that the Lord of all the earth should care to know my name. You know how it goes. Keep singing keep praising His name. He will provide. I'll be praying for you
            ~Lauren~



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            • #7
              Re: How I feel...

              TOM!

              We all fall off the bandwagon! Just don't hit the ground TOO hard! You have nothing to do but praise the Lord for your life and your ability to climb back on to the wagon at any time.

              Do you have an Air 1 radio station where you are (check them out at air1.com)? I find that it really pumps me up and puts my life into perspective everytime I start to get down. I have to realize that God has a purpose for my life and I find that, through music, he reveals it to me. I am not sure if you are into really young fresh Christian rock, but it is extremely motivating for me.

              Hang in there! You just have to ask God to help you get "over" it, and jump right back in! You have to forgive yourself for the slip and just start back on plan. You can do it! Who cares what the scale says as long as you know you are doing the wisest thing you can do for your health.

              GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM! GO TOM!
              Andrea
              Age 32/f, 5' 9-1/2"
              Restart 02/16/2010: hw 260/sw257.8/cw239.2/gw165
              18.6 pounds down, 74.2 pounds to go!
              Goal #1: 230
              Goal #2: 220
              Goal #3: 210
              Goal #4: 200
              Goal #5: 190
              Goal #6: 180
              Goal #7: 170
              GOAL: 165 by summer 2011

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              • #8
                Re: How I feel...

                Tom...I feel your pain! I just posted a thread titled, "Help! I played with sugar today!" asking for help over my binge of at least 12 chocolate chip cookies today. Why? I ask myself. I have been doing so well for almost a year.

                Please know that there are others out her struggling with the same issues and feelings. Sometimes for me that is all I need to hear, that I am not ALONE. Believe it or not your thread has helped me to know I am not ALONE! Thank you for being bold enough to post. You truly have helped me by sharing the lyrics of the MERCY ME song. (They are one of my favorite groups.)

                Hang in there, brother. Be strong in the Lord, take courage, and keep posting so we can encourage one another. The scripture reminds us, "Woe to he who does not have a brother to lift him up..."

                Blessings and Hugs,
                Start weight 01/01/10 ~ 212lbs./Current 200



                Stats as of 05/01/2007
                Starting to believe thin is possible!








                SW-295.5/CW 168/GW 155-160?

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                • #9
                  Re: How I feel...

                  Sounds a bit like you were putting too much pressure on yourself, and fell down go boom.

                  That happens to me as well, and the only recourse really is to just take that pressure off of myself. Falling off the wagon is something we all do - we wouldn't be in STAC otherwise, eh? But it's just important to remember that it's just one day/week/month in an otherwise beautiful pattern of weight loss and life.

                  I'd examine the reasons that you fell off. My bet? I think you doubt that you can be skinnier than you already are, or don't feel like you should be for some reason, so you sabotaged yourself. That's all right though, it's just important to know what happened and why, and try to address those issues. Perhaps losing more weight is just too much pressure right now - why did you decide you needed to lose more? Perhaps those reasons need to be examined too.

                  Anyway, I hope you're feeling better. Don't put all those anvils on your back, and please come to us for support!
                  Female

                  Reached Goal: 6/6/07 120, 27% BF
                  Hurt knee: 11/08
                  Restart: 5/10/10 Stats unknown as of yet!


                  My journal: http://www.atkinsdietbulletinboard.c...ad.php?t=14218

                  Goal Pictures - I reached it, and now I need to get back there!

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