Here Again. Attempt # ???

[SabrinaBird]

So maybe it's will power. Maybe discipline....Regardless the factor - the problem still exists. And I need to keep it in check.

This is my upteenth millionth time on here. Every past journey has failed - I have failed it. So maybe this is the one time I don't screw up and or give up ?? I have been on here since 2003 off and on.

My past efforts were terrorized by Depression and Life. My life is a little on track now and alot more smooth. So here it goes : )

I am almost 29, and have been BIG all of my life. I have 2 small children (ages 6 and 2) so I need to really do this. I need to be the active Mom and fit Mom.

I just started induction (again) this morning. And walked 2 miles after dropping my son off at school. I'v NEVER walked before. EVER. So I think I may finally be grabbing the Bull by the horns.

I do know that this site is a MUST have when trying to do this. I have met so many helpful and supportive people on here.

I AM AT MY BIGGEST SIZE AND WEIGHT EVER, and I hate it. I weighed in at 286 lbs. and am wearing size 24/26.

I will take it day by day. I need to work on the WILL POWER & DISCIPLINE !!!

Good Luck to All ! And Best Wishes.

[huggija]

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Sabrina,

Welcome back...you're definitely in the right place. I think the first bit of advice that we usually give is to get and read DANDR if you haven't already. If you have, re-read and follow it to the letter.

From my personal experience, it's about the DESIRE...the NEED...to fix myself and my relationship with food. To learn to eat to live, not live to eat. It's just FOOD...it's not comfort, it's not stability, it's not anything but food. It's not easy! It takes a lot of patience and commitment. If you can get thru a clean induction, you will find yourself feeling so much better, so more full of energy that it will provide much of the patience to continue to move forward. Since I'm in this forum, you know that I've done this before and taken a fall. It's what we all have in common here...the important thing is that we're BACK and committed to make this work for the long haul. It's truly a change in our lifestyle, not a diet.

I look forward to your posts. There are so many great people here and we're all here to support each other.

Have a GREAT day!

[mommagoose]

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Hello there. Congratulations on making the decision to restart the Atkins way of Life. It is important to take it one day at a time. Come and visit everyday and tell us how you are doing. Your children will be so proud of their mom and you will be proud of you too.
Linda

[hmf]

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Hey Sabrina..I too have started 5 million times. So I can so relate to you. As a matter of fact, I just restarted AGAIN yesterday. I think my problem is that I always put a time frame on it. So this time I am just going to make small goals along the way until I reach my ultilmate goal. And then and only then, will I feel complete. I will be happy to take a ride with you on this journey...together we can succeed. You should try out some of the challenges...that should help jump start everything. Walking is great too! I started walking last week to prep myself for a restart on Atkins this week. So far all is well. Good luck and I wish you the best.

[mothette]

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Welcome back. I know what it's like to stop a diet only to have to restart it a hundred times only at a higher weight each time. I've done that with weight watchers, low calorie, pretty much every diet I've been on. You're not alone.

I'm glad you are here and am looking forward to reading your posts and getting to know you better.

[hrgillespie]

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Welcome back .......... you have definitly made a good decision to come back to this WOE and also to this board and even more specifically this forum! Everyone here has BTDT and we know all the reasons excuses ect ......... and we are learning together how to overcome them and succeed in this healthy wonderful WOL!

Jump right in! You can do it yes you can!!!!!!!!

Heidi

[Outback Jess]

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Hey Sabrina and hmf, I think we all know where you are coming from, because it's the exact same place most of all have all ended up in....Overweight, out of control and wanting very much to see ourselves through to a turn around.
It can be done, and I would say don't give up until you eventually get there. I've gotten there, and i worked for a whole year staying focused and coming here every day. The biggest things that worked were ADBB and exercise....ADBB was easier than exercise in the beginning but I made myself get on a stationary bike, 6 days a week for 20 mins, until it was a good habit...then I increased it and then I added other things in. My body loves Atkins and the peace I find myself in rather quickly. But I had to fight to stay on program through many unexpected interuptions, like my mother rolling over and breaking her pelvis in bed on Christmas day all the way through the cascading downward of her health and then death...all right before my eyes, with me as her primary caregiver, all while I was on Atkins....."Oh Mother not this yr, this is the year of my transformaiton, I can't have yo in and out of hospitals and dying on me"...it happened and I did not cheat...I clung to the program I established, I even walked up and down stairs when ever I could not exercise....a great workout when your momma is on the 8th floor or an 8-floor hospital....

It can be done, you can find the life with food you would rather have...it's not easy, but it is and will always be ONLY ONE DAY AT A TIME....TODAY!

[chicamarun]

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Welcome back! I can totally see where you are coming from. I can tell you this is only my 2nd time taking it seriously. The 1st time, I lost 40 or so pounds. Over the years I regained the weight and would say "I'm doing it..." only to eat pasta in a few days, my heart wasn't in it.

My high weight was 182 and I'm 5ft tall. I carry it really well and not many people knew my weight and those that did honestly didn't believe me when I told them.

I woke up a little over a month ago and decided I was done. I don't want to be heavy anymore plain and simple. It's my self esteem and my confidence level that was hurting. I quit carbs and I haven't looked back. Yes, I cook for 3 other people who eat carbs. My daughter is in such high natural ketosis that she HAS to eat carbs because her body burns them so quickly it causes her to dehydrate. She should out grow it, but for now - if the girl wants popcorn, she gets it. Me? Nope, no desire to eat it.

I make myself something sweet and now treat a diet coke like it's a dessert. I also cook more (which my husband loves).

You can do it if you just make it the way it is - nothing different. People don't look at me funny, especially with so many allergies around, if I say I can't eat that but thanks

[angelawillbethinagain]

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SabrinaBird,

Your story sounds all to familiar to me. I have really struggled. I wanted to give you encouragement. You are making some real changes alread by coming here for support amd starting to walk!! Keep at it. Come here when you need some support and encouragement. I know what you mean about having to lose the weight and having young children. That is one of the main factors that has pushed me to lose my weight.

You can and will do this! Good luck to you on your journey

[OzLover]

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Lots of good support here. Ditto to it all. For me I finally realized that this is not just a physical journey...it is an emotional journey. Changing long established habits etc...It is hard but I'm doing it. You can do it too!! Read your book & keep it handy, come here often as there is alot of knowledge & support here, join a challenge or two, start a journal to keep track of your feelings.

Secondly you are not a loser so please change your siggy picture!! You are a beautiful vital human being who deserves what she wants!!

Glenda

[SabrinaBird]

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My Goodness !! Reading all of your reponses just make the world better. It's such an intense focus in my life - weight - weight - weight - that it rules my entire self. That's such a shame. And having to realize that FOOD owns me - or did own me..Some one said that "it's just food"... And you know ? That's RIGHT. It's just food. It will always be there. FOREVER. And I only have this one life and this one body. This should be so simple to see - but when this battle is 100% emotional, it's almost impossible. But seeing so many others fighting the same battle - makes my way a little less frightening.
Thank you all. I've promised myself to be a fit healthy Mom, Wife and Person before I hit 30 in 2008. There is so much I want to do! And this weightful life just holds me back. But this is a work in progress. I appreciate each and every one of you. I am going to make it a habit to come here daily. The past day or so I have felt like ala crap so I haven't been back until now.

Things are changin' !

Oh and Gelnda... I will find a better pic ! That's how I felt when logging on here!! lol

Secondly you are not a loser so please change your siggy picture!! You are a beautiful vital human being who deserves what she wants!!

Glenda

My Best to you all. And thanks for making my day, week and year !