Sick and Sicker

[Smallerizing]

After a grueling week getting ready for a yearly competition/convention with my DD, I'm finally back in ketosis. Then I woke up this morning with nausea, diahrea, and just an in-general down feeling. After emptying my guts for the 20th time I finally got enough strength to go to the store for some Pepto-Bismol (dadgum, I just thought of something -- I hope it was sugar-free!) Picked up some Splenda sweetened ginger ale, and 2 more doses of Diflucan. The Dr. prescribed 7 days of it, but insurance will only pick up 2 doses every 21 days.

Last Monday I got disgusted with the ketostix being negative even though I thought I was eating okay, and binged for 24 hours, including lasagna and a sundae. You know what I felt like! I wasn't able to post or read anything here until last night, but I did finally turn the stix pink yesterday, probably from all the walking at the conference burning up the few carbs I was eating.

The real bad thing about feeling crummy is I'm also feeling totally disgusted with myself and my inability to lose weight on this WOE. I want to give up but I know that will get me into a worse state than I am. I even bought nice clothes "just in case" I remain this size, because it seems the rule is "whatever you are prepared for won't happen."

I know there are a few things that can help tweak this WOE, and I should give them a chance. But I'm starting to see why I keep falling off the plan -- it's JUST TOO IMPOSSIBLE. I read about stalls, which are described as losing "only" a pound a week -- I WOULD GIVE MY EYETEETH TO LOSE A POUND A WEEK, FOLKS!

Am I just destined to be a blob? Should I try Stillman's again with low-fat and low-carb and low-calorie? Do I give up cheese and take the four Diflucans? Would that even help if I don't give up cheese forever? I already gave up chocolate, I don't think I could live without cheese. It's fast and easily available. And yummy. Do I try a fat fast? (Whaddya know, it's got cheese!) Do I just keep plugging along and hope that with my added exercise I'll actually start losing? Do I just stay content knowing I'll be healthier? (That''s not happening today)

Sorry about the rambling. Just posting to avoid eating the chocolate eggs.

[Desertthorn]

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Let me tell you, I felt exactly the same way and its your body fighting with you to get off low carbing and you just can't let it win.
1) Ketostix never, ever, never not once worked for me. I peed on a bottle full of the things, 3 times a day and never, not once, ever did they work. So ditch them and forgot em.
2) Keep away from those chocolate eggs!!
I went through the month of Feb, not losing, gaining, and then not losing. I kept telling myself, keep on plan, don't give up now, you can do it and finally the first part of March I started to lose again and its been pretty steady ever since.
We can do this. Give yourself til the end of March and just stay off the scales, stick with strict induction, exercise, and I know in my heart that you will start losing again.

[chicamarun]

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You can do it - yes it takes a lot of resolve sometimes. And a stall is definitely not losing anything. I think Evermind had one for a couple of MONTHS!! Yes it's heartbreaking - but then a lot of the time your body is adjusting to it's new weight... then all of a sudden WOOSH. Not sure why it happens like that but it can.

It stinks feeling yucky - but you will get past it I know you can! Most of us have been there at 1 point or another.... gosh knows I would love to be losing more than 1-2 lbs per week (and sometimes every otehr week).... but I know when that 1 lb comes off - it's staying off and that's more important than instant gratification (which I am a total fan of).... Good luck - know we are here for you, not only on good days but bad ones too!!

[fatback]

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dont give up on yourself this is part 2 for me also, just keep in mind that anything worth having n life is worth working for so if being smaller is what you want then you should keep that in the from of your head and dont forget that just because the scale doesnt move doesnt mean you havent made a diffrence

[Smallerizing]

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Too late. Binging. MMMMMM.... Carbs...... going straight to my butt....

[jersey]

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Christine ~ never too late. Throwing you a lifeline....come on.

[fatback]

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ohhhhhhhhhh noooo there is always tomorrow please for the love of god if you are binging eat a cookie with pink frosting on it for me, hen go get some orange chicken too. i think i might have gotten myself in trouble today because i was starving and i was stuck at the mall and i ended up eating pepper steak, but i didn't eat the onions and i ate as Little sauce as i could. soo enjoy your binge and get back to business when your done, good luck to you

[Smallerizing]

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Okay I'll be back on plan tomorrow. I'm about ready to take the diflucan and get rid of the candida but I don't know if I'll have time to cook yeast-free stuff for six to eight weeks. Cheesy rhymes with easy..... I think the candida is making me crave!!

I'm still not over the nausea, it's worse in the morning. I know what you're thinking but that's almost impossible. I'll get a test at the dollar store, though. Pepto-bismol IS sugar free and I've been drinking it like there's no tomorrow. How long DOES this stomach bug last??

[partytrouble]

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don't take immodium! if you have a stomach bug, it needs to come out and taking things like immodium keep it inside, further multiplying the bug. pepto is okay tho.

listen, i have been IN YOUR SHOES many many times before. dust yourself of the binge, get back on track, and TRY SOMETHING DIFFERENT. either work out more, or eat less. i PROMISE one of those things will work!! i finally got the scale moving again after cutting calories down to 1200-1500 for a few weeks, staying low carb. not really low fat, though, but just eating less overall food. try it.

you feel like crap for binging---LET IT GO. get back on plan in the morning, ride it out feeling bloating for 3 days, and by wednesday you will be feeling great with a flat tummy and no cravings. JUST DO IT!!