This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

[I_WILL_Lose_Weight]

So.

I think some time back in 2005 I joined ADBB for helpful advice and tips to get into the grove of Atkins. I had already been succesful on Atkins before, losing up to 40 pounds, and it was probably my 3rd time around. And thanks to you wonderful people I lost the desired amount of weight by 2006 even through my stumbles and my falls!

... That was 2 years ago ...

I have tried, and failed repeatedly to eat everything I want while maintaining a weight I'm happy to be at. I've come to admit that I'm powerless against whatever monster is inside of me that craves dunkin doughnuts and chocolate delights. I've come to admit that even though deep down inside (underneath all these layers) I've been depressed because I've always felt undesirable to my fellow peers, I've made the active choice to be this way by not putting the fork down and telling myself, "Wait a minute, I shouldn't be eating this."

Now here I am, almost back to the weight I was in 2005. And I'm MISERABLE.
I want my boyfriend to think I'm attractive, I want to be noticed when I go out. I don't want men to look the other direction to advert their eyes from my body, and I want to fit into normal sized clothes, and I want, FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE, to feel sexy! Well, maybe not sexy, but to feel COMFORTABLE with my body!!!

I want!

And as my handle name says, I WILL!

And I'm SO proud of myself guys =) Not only did I make the active decision to start my way to a healthier way of life, I went to the gym and got myself a membership =) And I made a promise to myself to not let that membership go to waste.

XD XD XD So... They give me an analysis...

Good gosh, I feel like a hideous monster. I'm just sooo thankful that the guy doing all my assesments was really nice, really talkative =) I had to keep reminding myself to not feel embarassed that I felt out of breath from just 5 mins of training and that I was there so I could fix that.

So. My cardiovascular endurance was POOR

Flexibility was POOR

Muscular Endurance was POOR

That actually made me feel kinda depressed XD I was at least hoping for "Below average" on flexibility, but what can a person do with a tub of lard hanging from their mid section?

But my determination is EXCELLENT =)

But again, today starts a new day.

And part of my active decision to start being having a new focus on a way of life was to come back to the guys who helped me achieve my goal weight in the first place! *hugs everyone*

So yeah =) I had to make a dramatic entrance. This will probably become my "Home" part of this Atkins site XD But at least I can come back into the program knowing I'm not alone =)

[womanpraised]

Re: This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

Just wanted to say welcome back, and not let those test results get to you. I always test well, but it doesn't mean a thing if you are carrying an extra personweight around! This is about you, and your fitness, and those tests are awesome because they provide a baseline to start from... Like if you were going to Hawaii, if you started from Denver or Miami, you are going to Hawaii either way... you just need to determine how you are going to travel, and how many layovers will catch you on the way... where you came from doesn't change where you are headed..

If that made sense.

ANYHOW...

Here's to your journey... may it be a quick one!

[Zarabelle]

Re: This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

Welcome back! I am sure I remember you from a previous time round (for me too!).

Good luck xx

[OzLover]

Re: This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

Welcome back & good luck on your journey!

[HulaMom]

Re: This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

Aloha,
You ARE coming to Hawaii. I'm so glad that you have that determination. That is the most important part.

I'm one month into my second time. I remember clearly from the first time that the diet helped the weight come off, and then exercise was so much easier! I never realized how physically hard it is to carry the extra weight. You don't need to stress yourself over working out. Exercise to your comfortable ability as your body adjusts. It should be fun and pleasant for you.

Big hug to you! This is your time to focus on yourself. It is a luxury and you DESERVE it. Not for anyone else but for you.

We can do it together!!

[I_WILL_Lose_Weight]

Re: This is my... (heck, I lost count) ... time around.

Heehee =) Thanks guys for the warm welcome! The cravings I had yesterday aren't as bad as the ones today. It's still painful to see the jar of chocolate fudge in the fridge since I'm a huge chocoholic, but I dealt with it =)

Even though now that I"m thinking about it I can just imagine what'd it taste like if it was melted and drizzeled over some banana slices and... NO NO NO! *slaps self* XD

But yeah =) I'm getting back in the grove, waiting for the first tell-tale signs of ketosis.