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Hello all,
I started over Jan1 and it lasted 3 days so I started again it lasted 3 days so I started again it lasted 2 days so Monday Jan 19 I started again now at day 6 I feel great, bought me some new walking shoes, and currently searching my soul to figure out why I would rather be uncomfortable in my skin, why I chose to continue the destructive eating habits that are currently killing my Mother, my younger brother, murdered my grandmother, grandfather, and numerous aunts and uncles. I had a difficult childhood but so did most of the Universe,so I can't blame that. I have even entertained the idea of something in my brain is different therefore I am unable to stick to anything healthy or good for me, you know brain damage
. So at this point I can no longer make excuses, it is just easier for me to grab a piece of sugar than to deal with what ever the problem or blessing of the moment. I refuse to feel anything for fear of experiencing life. I am almost 50 and I have lived half my life now, It is up to me to make the second half of my life one that I can feel the LIFE of living and stop hiding behind my fat and shame.
So for anyone who is experiencing somewhat the same experience-- Let's all go and live our lives, Let's feel what life is about and get on with it.
kscrrt
susiec
I started over Jan1 and it lasted 3 days so I started again it lasted 3 days so I started again it lasted 2 days so Monday Jan 19 I started again now at day 6 I feel great, bought me some new walking shoes, and currently searching my soul to figure out why I would rather be uncomfortable in my skin, why I chose to continue the destructive eating habits that are currently killing my Mother, my younger brother, murdered my grandmother, grandfather, and numerous aunts and uncles. I had a difficult childhood but so did most of the Universe,so I can't blame that. I have even entertained the idea of something in my brain is different therefore I am unable to stick to anything healthy or good for me, you know brain damage
. So at this point I can no longer make excuses, it is just easier for me to grab a piece of sugar than to deal with what ever the problem or blessing of the moment. I refuse to feel anything for fear of experiencing life. I am almost 50 and I have lived half my life now, It is up to me to make the second half of my life one that I can feel the LIFE of living and stop hiding behind my fat and shame. So for anyone who is experiencing somewhat the same experience-- Let's all go and live our lives, Let's feel what life is about and get on with it.
kscrrt
susiec
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