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Ugh, I never thought I'd actually do this. I didn't want to be "that kind of person" who does something, messes up, and "restarts"... I viewed it as "oh gawd, here we go again, they cheated, they feel guilty, now they want a fresh start" ... and I feel bad for thinking that, because I have to restart, because even though a few days ago I decided to begin OWL, I realized that yes, I had a real, full on by the book 14 day Induction, but I kept on the 20 carbs but lied to myself. I had berries, diet soda, stupid stupid.
I said to myself "well one can't blame me for being human!".
There I was, rationalizing to myself, of all people!
So, I know now that I'm not some superhuman, I really thought my willpower was awesome, but in retrospect, it was awesome for 14 days, and then the timer went off, and I messed up. I went really deep into reading this forum today and seeing every success here really just made me realize how I've shot myself in the foot.
I took some photographs today. I'm pretty disgusted at them, but I need to see my progress, and want the support of others. There is not one single person in my "real life" that understands this. My best friend is "doing Atkins" (she's just low-carbing and lying to herself) but she's more intent to see me cheat because it makes her feel better about herself, and she is often mad at me because I won't eat a roll when she does. So I haven't been utilizing this forum for what it's meant for, which is support.
Atkins is the kind of lifestyle where you either do it RIGHT, or don't freakin' do it at all. I'm choosing today to begin doing it right.
So, back to the beginning - Hi, I'm Camera, currently I weigh 222lbs, down from 248 when I started Induction on Jan. 16th. I'd like to get down to 140. I'm a size 18/20, and would like to drop at least 1 more size before June. I'm 29 years old, and I have no excuse for being fat other than being lazy as lazy can be. Thanks!
I said to myself "well one can't blame me for being human!".
There I was, rationalizing to myself, of all people!
So, I know now that I'm not some superhuman, I really thought my willpower was awesome, but in retrospect, it was awesome for 14 days, and then the timer went off, and I messed up. I went really deep into reading this forum today and seeing every success here really just made me realize how I've shot myself in the foot.
I took some photographs today. I'm pretty disgusted at them, but I need to see my progress, and want the support of others. There is not one single person in my "real life" that understands this. My best friend is "doing Atkins" (she's just low-carbing and lying to herself) but she's more intent to see me cheat because it makes her feel better about herself, and she is often mad at me because I won't eat a roll when she does. So I haven't been utilizing this forum for what it's meant for, which is support.
Atkins is the kind of lifestyle where you either do it RIGHT, or don't freakin' do it at all. I'm choosing today to begin doing it right.
So, back to the beginning - Hi, I'm Camera, currently I weigh 222lbs, down from 248 when I started Induction on Jan. 16th. I'd like to get down to 140. I'm a size 18/20, and would like to drop at least 1 more size before June. I'm 29 years old, and I have no excuse for being fat other than being lazy as lazy can be. Thanks!
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