my road back to Atkin's

[Every1LuvzAngie]

I am not a newbie at this WOE, although the first few times around I obviously looked at it more as a 'diet' than something I'm going to do to change my old habits and my future...I looked at it as a start and an end.

I got pregnant and gained a TON of weight, I mean I ate everything, cookies, bagels, candy, chips, cheetos, pizza....GOD I love pizza...ANYWAYS, I just ate and ate and my body right now is showing what eating everything in sight will do to a gal. I ballooned from 145lbs in 06 to after giving birth weighing in at 215...

which is where I'm at now...I actually lost about 20 lbs, working out, trying low fat....which failed miserably b/c i gained it all back.

none of my clothes fitting didnt do it for me, I made excuses, "I had a baby, I'm allowed to be this big" I blamed it on my PCOS 'I have a disorder thats why I'm this big its hard for me to lose weight" and with both of those being parts of my life...nothing made me fly so quicker back towards my old WOE than when someone mentioned this guy I knew liked me...now I have a b/f and a child so I wasn't worried nor interested in that or him, but the real thing was that it is a known fact I guess (I didnt know this at first) that he likes big women...now not to knock any bbw's out there but sometimes when you gain you don't see urself for as big as you truly are...and at THAT moment of realizing this, I was like 'wow, he is attracted to me because I am fat. wonderful"

Sometimes its the little things in life that can make you look at urself and say "I gotta do this for me"


and ladies that was it lol.

sorry for rambling on, forgive me?

[liv]

Re: my road back to Atkin's

Yeah you are forgiven for sure.
Welcome to ADBB. Good luck on the journey.

[Barb1965]

Re: my road back to Atkin's

Welcome back, come join us in the Second Time Around Club (STAC) and yes you are forgiven. I think it is great that some men find large ladies lovely, but sometimes it gets creepy when they are so turned on by the rolls that they want their woman to stay unhealthy to satisfy their fetish. Sometimes its the obscure that gives us a reality check.