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Wow! It's Friday! It's been an exhausting week for me and I welcome the weekend with open arms! I get to clean the house, exercise and maybe find something worthwhile and delicious to eat!
Was iced and snowed in on Wednesday and used that as an opportunity to sleep several extra hours and then exercise.
Work on Thursday was horrible though. The county north of us got an even worse ice storm than we did. ALL the businesses there are practically shutdown. So, I offered to ignore my office for the day and help out up front at work. The county north of us hasn't had electricity, water or heat since Tuesday. I took dozen of calls within a few minutes from that area asking if we had any generators. These people are in their homes freezing and can't even flush their toilets....for DAYS now. Within a short time, I found myself trying to help an elderly man and a young mother. He said he didn't think he and his wife could make it another night without heat. It was 41 degrees inside their home. The young mother said she and her husband have a 4 year old baby and she didn't think they'd make it another night with all of them scrunched together under blankets, yet still freezing. I called and called and called every resource I could think of. I called places 150 miles away. No one has propane heaters or kerosene heaters. No one. I called sister stores. I called the competition. SOOOO frustrating. I wanted to make a difference for people today and it felt more like I was a speed bump.
I heard horror stories all day about people buying grills and lighting and using them in their homes to stay warm. Can you imagine the desperation? What happens if it catches on fire? There's no water. None of the phone lines are working. What an unimaginable nightmare!!!
Some of the people from there told me today there is only one grocery store open and it's under police guard. Only 25 customers are allowed in at a time and they're only allowed to buy non perishable items totally $25 cash per day. Their supply of food is dwindling. How do you come up with cash...there's no electricity. Banks are closed. No ATM's work. The gas stations are full of gas but they're closed. No electricity to pump the gas. The people who are lucky enough to have propane gas for heat have run out of it and are coming here to refill small tanks.
When I went home for lunch today, traffic coming from that direction was backed up for miles. It was like my city was seeing the mass exodus of desperate people. They were flooding in. There were lines out into the road at every gas station I passed. WalMart parking lot was fuller than I have ever seen. It was crazy and somehow I can't help but wonder...what is going to happen to all of our resources. I hope the gas supply doesn't dry up. I hope I don't have to drive to another county further south to get fuel for my car. Thank God I filled up the night the storm was on the way! My only real needs right now are fresh veggies and some staple grocery items but it will be a madhouse no matter what time I go. Perhaps in the middle of the night is the time to go.
All of this put other things into perspective for me. I've been tough on myself about being stuck at 212 for a week. I was stuck at 217 for awhile and I feel like I'm stuck again...just at a different number. It's frustrating! I'm dreaming of ONEderland. Tunnel vision. I'm busting my butt and I want it to shrink!
I had a business associate come in today who I haven't seen since I've dropped 20 lbs. She's negative ALL the time. I've tried to recruit her to low carb with me. She weighs 270 and could stand to join in. She's got 270 reasons why she won't do it...so, ok. But I saw her Thursday and she didn't say one word. Not a word. I've lost a chin and so many inches and people who know me can see a difference. It was sad because I expected something from her. An atta-girl. Way to go. Wow, you should be proud. She said a few other things that let me know quickly, she's not my friend. Cruel reality on an already tough day.
My son is going to see his dad this weekend. I'm going to relax (somehow) with the help of my dogs. Maybe they can give me kisses...they do love us with their lives no matter what our size, don't they??
Was iced and snowed in on Wednesday and used that as an opportunity to sleep several extra hours and then exercise.
Work on Thursday was horrible though. The county north of us got an even worse ice storm than we did. ALL the businesses there are practically shutdown. So, I offered to ignore my office for the day and help out up front at work. The county north of us hasn't had electricity, water or heat since Tuesday. I took dozen of calls within a few minutes from that area asking if we had any generators. These people are in their homes freezing and can't even flush their toilets....for DAYS now. Within a short time, I found myself trying to help an elderly man and a young mother. He said he didn't think he and his wife could make it another night without heat. It was 41 degrees inside their home. The young mother said she and her husband have a 4 year old baby and she didn't think they'd make it another night with all of them scrunched together under blankets, yet still freezing. I called and called and called every resource I could think of. I called places 150 miles away. No one has propane heaters or kerosene heaters. No one. I called sister stores. I called the competition. SOOOO frustrating. I wanted to make a difference for people today and it felt more like I was a speed bump.
I heard horror stories all day about people buying grills and lighting and using them in their homes to stay warm. Can you imagine the desperation? What happens if it catches on fire? There's no water. None of the phone lines are working. What an unimaginable nightmare!!!
Some of the people from there told me today there is only one grocery store open and it's under police guard. Only 25 customers are allowed in at a time and they're only allowed to buy non perishable items totally $25 cash per day. Their supply of food is dwindling. How do you come up with cash...there's no electricity. Banks are closed. No ATM's work. The gas stations are full of gas but they're closed. No electricity to pump the gas. The people who are lucky enough to have propane gas for heat have run out of it and are coming here to refill small tanks.
When I went home for lunch today, traffic coming from that direction was backed up for miles. It was like my city was seeing the mass exodus of desperate people. They were flooding in. There were lines out into the road at every gas station I passed. WalMart parking lot was fuller than I have ever seen. It was crazy and somehow I can't help but wonder...what is going to happen to all of our resources. I hope the gas supply doesn't dry up. I hope I don't have to drive to another county further south to get fuel for my car. Thank God I filled up the night the storm was on the way! My only real needs right now are fresh veggies and some staple grocery items but it will be a madhouse no matter what time I go. Perhaps in the middle of the night is the time to go.
All of this put other things into perspective for me. I've been tough on myself about being stuck at 212 for a week. I was stuck at 217 for awhile and I feel like I'm stuck again...just at a different number. It's frustrating! I'm dreaming of ONEderland. Tunnel vision. I'm busting my butt and I want it to shrink!
I had a business associate come in today who I haven't seen since I've dropped 20 lbs. She's negative ALL the time. I've tried to recruit her to low carb with me. She weighs 270 and could stand to join in. She's got 270 reasons why she won't do it...so, ok. But I saw her Thursday and she didn't say one word. Not a word. I've lost a chin and so many inches and people who know me can see a difference. It was sad because I expected something from her. An atta-girl. Way to go. Wow, you should be proud. She said a few other things that let me know quickly, she's not my friend. Cruel reality on an already tough day.
My son is going to see his dad this weekend. I'm going to relax (somehow) with the help of my dogs. Maybe they can give me kisses...they do love us with their lives no matter what our size, don't they??
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. I couldn't imagine being in a situation like that...your a great person for trying to help others so believe you WILL be rewarded for your efforts (as well as your weightloss efforts) 
So please, dont get frustrated just yet because the reward may just be a whooshie! I went from losing 11 lbs my 1st week to nothing @ all my 2nd and I usually get frustrated and give up but not this time! Im hanging in there and so should you, the scale WILL move!
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It sounds as if you have had the week from h##l, 
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...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 
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