So every year my family (20+ people) get together for Memorial Day weekend, and we always order a load of cupcakes from a particular bakery that is in my city. Nobody else lives close, so it is my "duty" to go in and place the order (large orders must be placed in person.) I knew better. I KNEW better. I should have waited until my mom came to visit and made her go in and order them.
I, of course, bought a ready-made cupcake. I'm not going to say that I was overwhelmed or swept away or "had to", because the truth is, I made the conscious decision to give in to temptation. I unwrapped it and took a huge bite, expecting to enjoy the he** out of it. The strange thing is...it wasn't as good as I thought it was going to be. It was incredibly sweet and tasted kind of...fake. And this is after just 2 days of induction. I threw the rest of it away. It wasn't worth eating.
I am finally fully convinced that this way of eating changes your whole idea about what's worthwhile and what isn't, what tastes good and what doesn't. I think I was looking for an excuse not to continue. First, I was waiting for the scale not to budge, but I was down 3 pounds this morning. Then, I was looking for the, "I can't not eat carbs" out, but that cupcake showed me that that isn't true, either. So I know that this time I can stop sabotaging myself, and I am back on the wagon. Not tomorrow! I'm not going to take the "I messed up today anyway" excuse and eat something else bad. I am back on NOW.
I guess I just needed to vent a little bit, and I also wanted everyone else to know that if you have a misstep, own up to it (don't say you couldn't help it, that gives power to the food...don't give power to the inanimate) and don't resolve to wake up and start fresh, start fresh in this second.
I, of course, bought a ready-made cupcake. I'm not going to say that I was overwhelmed or swept away or "had to", because the truth is, I made the conscious decision to give in to temptation. I unwrapped it and took a huge bite, expecting to enjoy the he** out of it. The strange thing is...it wasn't as good as I thought it was going to be. It was incredibly sweet and tasted kind of...fake. And this is after just 2 days of induction. I threw the rest of it away. It wasn't worth eating.
I am finally fully convinced that this way of eating changes your whole idea about what's worthwhile and what isn't, what tastes good and what doesn't. I think I was looking for an excuse not to continue. First, I was waiting for the scale not to budge, but I was down 3 pounds this morning. Then, I was looking for the, "I can't not eat carbs" out, but that cupcake showed me that that isn't true, either. So I know that this time I can stop sabotaging myself, and I am back on the wagon. Not tomorrow! I'm not going to take the "I messed up today anyway" excuse and eat something else bad. I am back on NOW.
I guess I just needed to vent a little bit, and I also wanted everyone else to know that if you have a misstep, own up to it (don't say you couldn't help it, that gives power to the food...don't give power to the inanimate) and don't resolve to wake up and start fresh, start fresh in this second.









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