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Hi my name is Jerrica. I am 8 days into induction. I am here for a few reasons. I have been fat now for 7 years. It is emotionally draining. I avoid going in to stores if I see someone I have not seen in years. I cringe if they walk into the same place I am in. I feel trapped and embarrassed. I used to be very athletic until I had my 2nd and 3rd child. I am 32 years old and tired of letting my weight control my life!!! My children are very athletic as well. They all play softball, baseball, and basketball and are very good at it. They ask me all the time to practice with them. I tire very easily because I am at starting weight 254 lbs.
Recently I ran into a friend that I adore that I have not seen in years. My sister was at the table with me and he ran over to say hi to her. I kept my head turned the whole time hoping he would not see me. Then the words came out (how is your sister)? I wanted to climb under the table. It was very awkward and I said here I am 100lbs heavier. He said I am sorry I did not recognize you and gave me a big hug. I barely talked to him because I am ashamed of the way I look. When he left my sis said Jerrica he loves you as a friend no matter what size you are. She said every time I see him out all he talks about is how much he adores you. You are letting this control you completely. When I got into the car I cried because I acted like I did not care to see him. It was not that at all it was me being ashamed of my appearance. I am tired of that feeling and I am ready to change.
About 2 weeks ago my other sis asked be to be in her wedding. I immeadiately said I can't and she said what do you mean? I said I am too fat and I don't want to stand in front of everybody. She said too bad you have 9 months to change it if it bothers you. Your in my wedding so stand there ebarrased or stand there proud it is up to you. So here I am with incentive, lol. I am on my way to being proud and healthy.
Recently I ran into a friend that I adore that I have not seen in years. My sister was at the table with me and he ran over to say hi to her. I kept my head turned the whole time hoping he would not see me. Then the words came out (how is your sister)? I wanted to climb under the table. It was very awkward and I said here I am 100lbs heavier. He said I am sorry I did not recognize you and gave me a big hug. I barely talked to him because I am ashamed of the way I look. When he left my sis said Jerrica he loves you as a friend no matter what size you are. She said every time I see him out all he talks about is how much he adores you. You are letting this control you completely. When I got into the car I cried because I acted like I did not care to see him. It was not that at all it was me being ashamed of my appearance. I am tired of that feeling and I am ready to change.
About 2 weeks ago my other sis asked be to be in her wedding. I immeadiately said I can't and she said what do you mean? I said I am too fat and I don't want to stand in front of everybody. She said too bad you have 9 months to change it if it bothers you. Your in my wedding so stand there ebarrased or stand there proud it is up to you. So here I am with incentive, lol. I am on my way to being proud and healthy.
I truly can relate. I, like you, am just at the start of my journey (day 9 of induction), and have 100 or so lbs. to lose, too. 
So there you go ~ the best i can do! 
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