Born Again :)

[KATZIIZ]

I am another "New Again" members. I had first begun the Atkins WOL back in 2004. At that time I had reached my highest weight ever after the birth of my son Gabriel. After finding Atkins and the low carb life, by summer the following year I was happily on my way to Goal of 175 pounds!




Then, I became pregnant with our twins, Sarah and Samantha. Since their birth in 2006, I am still carrying all the extra weight I gained during pregnancy and then some extra! Now at a whopping 290 pounds, now my heaviest ever! I have begun having failing health and plummeting self esteem. I feel rotten, look rotten and need to get back into the swing of eating healthy. My five year is also suffering from our carboholic lifestyle when at just 5 he weighs just under 80 pounds. More healthy choices for him would be what he really needs right now. Not induction or phases for him...just healthier choices with Me setting the example .

So, I've been trying to get started for months now really. It was sooo easy the first time around. I just jumped in and off I went with hardly a bump in the road. But, maybe harder this time around cuz I feel like a failure and I'm letting myself punish myself with bad food choices...and I guess it's kind of a way of eating myself away. ? I'd buy the food, clean the carbs out of the cupboards and set a start date....only to hurt myself by not following through.

Yesterday at 12:00 am CST, I put my foot down and swore I will start already....no more messing around!!! I have a dr's appt this week for chest pain and extreme fatique...no more messing around with excuses or fears....I have to make a change before it kills me! I have others that need me around for them dang it!! So, I've started officially. I feel like crap and am having cravings galore. But I remember it took like 2 weeks for me to get past all that the first time around. I got a membership at our local health club too. I need to get toned and happy. I am truly miserable and don't enjoy life at all right now. I want to smile again from the inside out!!! I know this is where I need to get my life back to.

I'm glad there's a place like this here to help people like me.

[Creek]

Re: Born Again

I thought about your post for a few hours before I responded. So many people here have been where you are emotionally, and that's one of the reason's why we're here. You are not alone. I'd like you to look at your picture again though, because you're beautiful. Your someone's Mama and that makes you the most important person in the world.

I'm so glad you decided to join us and follow the Atkins way of life. I know you'll be successful. I do encourage you though, to be your own best friend. When I get negative about myself, I look in the mirror and say, "What would I tell my best friend about these feelings?" I'm good with positive feedback for my best friend, me. It didn't come easy, but practice, practice, practice...and soon you'll be loving and respecting yourself all over.

Again, welcome, and the more you read here, the more you will learn. I'm looking forward to watching your transformation as you are reborn.

[dreamof145]

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Kathy Welcome. I agree with Creek..you are worth it. You deserve to be a healthy, happy and active mom to your precisious children. Start out with baby-steps. Focus on 10 pounds at a time. Come here often for motivation and support. Read the book, build a plan for yourself and it will happen. The people in this forum understand and are here to help you keep motivated and succeed. Become active here, make friends and learn new choices that will increase your health and energy and help you lose weight. You can do it. We're all here for you!

[joee5]

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Welcome. You were successful once you will be successful again. Hang in there. Keep the faith. God Bless, Joe