words unspoken...and everything in between

[OceanFire]

I’ve thought about what I was going to write in my “intro” for days now. I was going to start off with how I got fat….blaming it on pregnancy and hormones, rough times with my relationship, economy…..pick a reason because I can find any excuse to eat. I was going to tell you all that I’ve been on the atkins diet before and dropped over 100 lbs but how it’s so hard now with my boys in the house (including a 28 yr old – the finance’ who LOVES to eat, but looks great with his 180 lbs) because it’s easier to grab cheezits than to fry up some bacon or grill some chicken when I’m starving. I was going to tell you that I lost another 70 lbs last year over the summer and then gained it all back because I was depressed. But I guess what I should say is that I need help. I cannot do this. I am losing a battle every day with myself and food. I can find an excuse for “starting tomorrow”….for eating it just this one time…..for a celebration. I can ALWAYS START OVER TOMORROW. I am the queen of starting over tomorrow. I do it everyday so I should be good at it. It’s funny, I work for the Navy. I have some the scariest Master Chief’s in my face all day but the only thing that I roll over and give into is food. One of my Master Chief’s told me a few months ago “Karen….I like you because you don’t cry. I yell, you listen. You’re a good one. You don’t cry.” **** no I don’t cry, I just go home and eat and then cry when the lights are out. Not only do I want to win this fight….and most of the same reasons as everyone else on here. I used to care about the clothes and the looking cute…..whatever, I look cute no matter what LOL…..i’m actually a very confident person. HOWEVER…..I am 29 and have my little 4 year old world at the house who needs a mommy. He needs a mommy to be here to hold his 4 year old little world. I want to see my grandkids some day. I don’t want to die from heart disease or diabetes. I can do this. At least that’s what I tell myself. But I’ve also realized I’m addicted. I am SO addicted to food. I eat food like an addict smokes crack. My day is focused around what’s for dinner…..is there enough for snacks at night and to take some to my office tomorrow. First thing on Monday is check what’s for lunch in the restaurant downstairs. It’s insane….i’m this awesome, fun tattooed mommy with the coolest job, kiddo and fiancé who are SO supportive….but I cannot seem to do this. I need help. So I guess I’m asking you all to help me. Please

[jimmie 48]

Re: words unspoken...and everything in between

welcome to the ADBB, karen!!!

i think it's great that you have a support system in place at home. that will be so encouraging and helpful over the next few months and all along this journey we call atkins woe. get 'em ready for what's to come by talking to them about heathier ways of eating and how they can help you.

i hope you've taken time to read the book. we use the 2002 edition of the Dr. Atkins New Diet Revolution [DANDR]. those first chapters are what i like to call the cheerleading chapters and nobody does it better than Dr. atkins! read those words and there is no way you can't get pumped up and ready to lose weight and more than that..... get healthy, be healthy, stay healthy!

i think you will find that you're going to break some addictions. the addiction to sugar is about to be kicked to the curb. the addiction to bad carbs will be put at bay. will you struggle? probably, from time to time but my gosh, woman.... you're STRONG and i have faith you can hold your own.

you picked a great time to join the board! the new challenges have just begun and i know any of them would love to have you be a part of their group.

[sallyseachange]

Re: words unspoken...and everything in between

Welcome Karen! You did an awesome thing posting your story, your fears, hopes and desires.
You want help? Well... you've come to the absolute right place for that.
Jimmie is right... this is a good time to join the board. Immerse yourself in a challenge or two; maybe start a journal if that grabs you; ask questions and make friends.

No worries....we'll help you. We're all in this together!

[Chicklady]

Re: words unspoken...and everything in between

Hi Karen Your introduction hit home....it probably did with a lot of people!
We're here for you!!