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I was at the eye Dr's and went past a mirror, I mean I know I was heavy but wow, it took me for a surprise. Why didn't I see how fat I was before this? Was my head buried in the sand that much? I have been feeling the extra weight, it is hurting my health, my self esteem and activity level. In the near future I will have to move and right now I don't think I am up for that physically.
So I have been tossing the diet thing around for a while and that mirror said it better be now, not any later.
I am depressed and mad at me self for letting my self get this way.
It started big time when my husband died and food became a comfort food. Yes, I knew that food offered no long solutions, That I would be just as depressed as I was before I broke down to eat, maybe even more, after a while, the feeling of remorse didn't even matter.
I have been here at this forum before, lost 40 pounds and stopped cause of some reason I don't even remember
now.
So here I sit at over 350 ( gotta get a working scale) and what do I remember of all the food I ate that added to this fat?? Not much. I know I let a lot of life slip away.
I will be going thru some stressful times in the future and I don't want to get any heavier
My son will be leaving to move to Nebraska, this breaks my heart.
We will be moving to N.C. in 2 years and leave the house I grew up in.
I will be having money problems.
I have a 16 year old that is driving me to tears.
I am celiac and have fibro. and often in very bad pain
I hope I don't sound like I am whining to much, but I feel If I am open enough to my self, by writing it down, maybe it will help.
Today I didn't start as I need to go shopping, that won't be till Tuesday, But I am cutting back on stuff and its driving me nuts. I want to eat, I am hungry and all
But 3 meals today, no snacking, no sweets, no seconds
thanks for listening
Sandi
I was at the eye Dr's and went past a mirror, I mean I know I was heavy but wow, it took me for a surprise. Why didn't I see how fat I was before this? Was my head buried in the sand that much? I have been feeling the extra weight, it is hurting my health, my self esteem and activity level. In the near future I will have to move and right now I don't think I am up for that physically.
So I have been tossing the diet thing around for a while and that mirror said it better be now, not any later.
I am depressed and mad at me self for letting my self get this way.
It started big time when my husband died and food became a comfort food. Yes, I knew that food offered no long solutions, That I would be just as depressed as I was before I broke down to eat, maybe even more, after a while, the feeling of remorse didn't even matter.
I have been here at this forum before, lost 40 pounds and stopped cause of some reason I don't even remember
now.
So here I sit at over 350 ( gotta get a working scale) and what do I remember of all the food I ate that added to this fat?? Not much. I know I let a lot of life slip away.
I will be going thru some stressful times in the future and I don't want to get any heavier
My son will be leaving to move to Nebraska, this breaks my heart.
We will be moving to N.C. in 2 years and leave the house I grew up in.
I will be having money problems.
I have a 16 year old that is driving me to tears.
I am celiac and have fibro. and often in very bad pain
I hope I don't sound like I am whining to much, but I feel If I am open enough to my self, by writing it down, maybe it will help.
Today I didn't start as I need to go shopping, that won't be till Tuesday, But I am cutting back on stuff and its driving me nuts. I want to eat, I am hungry and all
But 3 meals today, no snacking, no sweets, no seconds
thanks for listening
Sandi
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