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Well I've been visiting the forums since summer of last year, and I figured I'm at that point that some support would help me even more.
My entire life I was a dancer. Fit, but never nearly as thin as the rest of my dancing friends (about 145). As soon as I stopped dancing after university, I started noticing my weight slowly going up. I got an office job where I met a great guy and we started dating. (I was about 180 at this point) My lifestyle really changed. He ate pizza and other junk all the time. He never had food in the fridge so he would order food every night and I started developing really bad habits. A year later I was pushing 215. I stopped seeing my friends because they were all still beautiful dancers and I was too embarrassed to have them see me like this. I started drinking more after work because I was being bullied at work and the person who was doing it was an owner of the company, and I work in HR.
My weight went up to 230. wow. THEN I started to notice that my boyfriend wasn't touching me anymore and I had a gut feeling he was starting to see another girl because I looked gross.
Then I just got fed up. That's it. What the heck was I doing to myself?! I used to be a dance major in university! I'm 25 and I looked like I could barely get up the stairs! So in November I started Atkins. I loooovveee Atkins. It works if you just follow the rules. Super easy! Well...the weight wasn't coming off fast enough and my boyfriend finally admitted (Jan 2010) he wasn't attracted to me anymore. 2 years gone in a 4 hour conversation. I confronted him about the other girl and of course he denied denied denied. (this girl lives on his floor, two doors down, blonde hair, thin..you get the picture) He said she did come over a couple of times but nothing was going on. Uh huh. Well during this time, Atkins was making me feel so much better because I wasn't just sitting on my butt and crying! I left my crappy job and I got up and got to dance class and now it's Feb and I'm down 30 pounds! I'm seeing my wicked body coming back slowly and man it's the best feeling ever.
*sigh* Of course Facebook has to go ahead and ruin my happiness high. He's now in a relationship.... With her. My gut might have been fat, but it sure knows when a guy is spewing garbage at me! lol My gut feeling was right! BUT...then I read some of the comments his friends were making. "she's hot. Not like that pig you had before."
.....OUCH! Well instead of crying, here I am typing this very very long message to keep me positive and on the right track. I'm going to get back to the super happy and healthy me through Atkins, time and hard work! There is nothing more I would like than to shove pics of me in a few months in this jerks face, but I'm trying to keep strong for myself and show pictures of myself to new guys in a few months and forget alllll about him.
My ballet body is under there somewhere and I know how to find it.
Thanks for reading! I know it was a lot to get through.
My entire life I was a dancer. Fit, but never nearly as thin as the rest of my dancing friends (about 145). As soon as I stopped dancing after university, I started noticing my weight slowly going up. I got an office job where I met a great guy and we started dating. (I was about 180 at this point) My lifestyle really changed. He ate pizza and other junk all the time. He never had food in the fridge so he would order food every night and I started developing really bad habits. A year later I was pushing 215. I stopped seeing my friends because they were all still beautiful dancers and I was too embarrassed to have them see me like this. I started drinking more after work because I was being bullied at work and the person who was doing it was an owner of the company, and I work in HR.
My weight went up to 230. wow. THEN I started to notice that my boyfriend wasn't touching me anymore and I had a gut feeling he was starting to see another girl because I looked gross. Then I just got fed up. That's it. What the heck was I doing to myself?! I used to be a dance major in university! I'm 25 and I looked like I could barely get up the stairs! So in November I started Atkins. I loooovveee Atkins. It works if you just follow the rules. Super easy! Well...the weight wasn't coming off fast enough and my boyfriend finally admitted (Jan 2010) he wasn't attracted to me anymore. 2 years gone in a 4 hour conversation. I confronted him about the other girl and of course he denied denied denied. (this girl lives on his floor, two doors down, blonde hair, thin..you get the picture) He said she did come over a couple of times but nothing was going on. Uh huh. Well during this time, Atkins was making me feel so much better because I wasn't just sitting on my butt and crying! I left my crappy job and I got up and got to dance class and now it's Feb and I'm down 30 pounds! I'm seeing my wicked body coming back slowly and man it's the best feeling ever.
*sigh* Of course Facebook has to go ahead and ruin my happiness high. He's now in a relationship.... With her. My gut might have been fat, but it sure knows when a guy is spewing garbage at me! lol My gut feeling was right! BUT...then I read some of the comments his friends were making. "she's hot. Not like that pig you had before."
.....OUCH! Well instead of crying, here I am typing this very very long message to keep me positive and on the right track. I'm going to get back to the super happy and healthy me through Atkins, time and hard work! There is nothing more I would like than to shove pics of me in a few months in this jerks face, but I'm trying to keep strong for myself and show pictures of myself to new guys in a few months and forget alllll about him.My ballet body is under there somewhere and I know how to find it.
Thanks for reading! I know it was a lot to get through.
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