Last chance before I throw in the towel

[knucklesmom]

This is my last ditch effort to a "normal" existance. I have many good friends but they are all small petite and beautiful. They always tell me they accept me the way I am..but how can they when I dont accept myself. They truly dont understand what its like nor do I expect them too. So today is D-day for me. It is not going to be fun but maybe it will be worth it.

I have spent many many hours trying to figure out who or what to blame for my "eating" and just dont know where to start. Therapists have suggested I eat to "sabbotage" myself and to keep people at arms length due to being sexually abused from the ages 7-14. Sure I can blame it on my mom for never loving me as much as my very athletic older brother (and yes she has admitted it). For my 12th b-day she gave my the Richard Simmons "Deal a Meal" program...lol But at some point I have to take charge of my own life.

I have a wonderful boyfriend of 16 years who is also fighting his own battle with his weight. 7 years ago he was able to loose 130 lbs using atkins...but of course gained all + some. He is trying th calorie counting thing but I am sure he will be right here with me in no time.

Well goodbye for now

[atkinsgal08]

Re: Last chance before I throw in the towel

Welcome to ADBB!

[liv]

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Sounds like you have some really lovely friends. That will be a nice support for you as you embark on this new journey. Glad you chose to come here an post. So how did D day go?

[wallace bump]

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Hi there,

I'm new to this forum and to Atkins, too.

I am using the programme to get a grip on my own unhealthy relationship with eating (binging) and it's working well so far. Whatever the reasons are -- and they are important, don't get me wrong-- it's a relief to have a practical way to help get some control over symptoms.


Hope to see you around the boards.

Catherine

[Browneyedmelly]

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You know what usually I do not offer advice, because I have such a long journey ahead myself.. but before I started this woe.. I was a bit overwhelmed..the best thing to do is just to start and enjoy the little things you achieve first.. for me it was, not drinking a regular pepsi in 24 hours.. then it was finally getting the seat belt around me.. dont worry about number goals.. just worry about getting yourself on track..keep a positive attitude..take it day by day and good luck to you..

[LateNiteDiner]

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You know what usually I do not offer advice, because I have such a long journey ahead myself

This is what keeps me coming back to this site. Other members who step out of their "comfort zone" to lift others up, and show how even when we think we are the only ones in our predicament, there's always someone who has been in exactly the same position.

Hang in there knucklesmom! If you are doubtful of your thin friends' support starting out, there are plenty of us at ADBB who are (or have been) in the same place you are, ready to see you to success. You can do this.

[Browneyedmelly]

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Thanks Latenight.. I do not do it very often for fear of saying something that's wrong...but I really can relate to this thread.. sometimes it feels like forever to even see the 200's....so that's why its easier to have little successes because then it turns into bigger ones...

[imagood1]

Re: Last chance before I throw in the towel

Welcome - good luck to you. If and when you need something we're here to help each other.