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Hi all, Nicholet here. I first encountered this site last Fall and tried on 2 attempts to this WOE, but never did I FULLY commit. I just played w/ the lifestyle for awhile to see what I could "get" out of it. A few weeks ago I posted a message about my failures and why I cannot accept that I am fat nor have a problem w/ my addiction to carbs. I've always been about 160 -180lbs average after the babies came, but when we moved up here in the cold tundra, I quit smoking and haven't smoked since.
It's been 3 yrs now and although I knew that I would gain some weight, 30 pounds was a shock!!! I've done some self-reflecting the last few weeks and here's my belief: My mother raised me to be confident in everything I do. I finished college and completed my masters degree in less than 13 months, there's no stopping me and I'm head strong. So I'm perfectly comfortable with who I am and my looks. I never based my acceptance on what others thought of me. My weight bothered me, but not that much. Not that much to dive into a mode that would "deprive myself of those crucial desires" to choose eating popcorn at a movie, choosing a candy bar, etc. I am a female who likes freedom and choices. I grew up watching my mother take care of us independently since my father died. I also love freedom and to take away food choices was a self-inflicting hit upon myself. I just couldn't punish and take away the one thing that I had choices on...food.
However, as I read everyone's reply and let it soak in....I began to realize that I just didn't want to lose weight badly enough. The truth is that you must want it BADLY, more than a piece of candy, more than popcorn at the movie theatre. Losing weight and becoming healthy has to be my first choice. My first desire. Losing weight and following this lifestyle is now a NEW rebirth in my life. I've accepted it and have not cheated once in the last week, not once!!! So please consider me a regular now, I'm here to stay. I will offer support to others and God knows that I'll need it.
Nicholet :wave
It's been 3 yrs now and although I knew that I would gain some weight, 30 pounds was a shock!!! I've done some self-reflecting the last few weeks and here's my belief: My mother raised me to be confident in everything I do. I finished college and completed my masters degree in less than 13 months, there's no stopping me and I'm head strong. So I'm perfectly comfortable with who I am and my looks. I never based my acceptance on what others thought of me. My weight bothered me, but not that much. Not that much to dive into a mode that would "deprive myself of those crucial desires" to choose eating popcorn at a movie, choosing a candy bar, etc. I am a female who likes freedom and choices. I grew up watching my mother take care of us independently since my father died. I also love freedom and to take away food choices was a self-inflicting hit upon myself. I just couldn't punish and take away the one thing that I had choices on...food.
However, as I read everyone's reply and let it soak in....I began to realize that I just didn't want to lose weight badly enough. The truth is that you must want it BADLY, more than a piece of candy, more than popcorn at the movie theatre. Losing weight and becoming healthy has to be my first choice. My first desire. Losing weight and following this lifestyle is now a NEW rebirth in my life. I've accepted it and have not cheated once in the last week, not once!!! So please consider me a regular now, I'm here to stay. I will offer support to others and God knows that I'll need it.
Nicholet :wave
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