I am feeling better for the most part. I have been dealing with the cold/sinus what ever it is for a month.
I am however back on atkins and I am doing great.
I am still having all the previous issues but I hope one day I can work through all the pain and emotions that go with it. I am going to just keep pushing forward and one day I will make it.

I know that I will never have the support of my birth family. But I do have the support of my family I have here with me. I will have to learn to let go of all the past issues and focus on the positive ones here. I have a Husband, daughter, grandchildren, and in laws that support me and encourage me.
I will not be going to my moms for thanksgiving as I was told in a round about way I was not invited. So hey it is just food and an atmosphere I cant take grandkids to so hey I am all the better for it anyway. They put sugar in everything.
I learned a valuable lesson on October 30th though. You know the body glitter they sell at halloween that you spray on your self to make you sparkle. Well never, never go near extreme heat. My hair is now a foot shorter due to that stuff. I do like my new hair cut though.

Well I guess I will get back to my old way of focusing on me. I feel better when I do.