I know I've had too many carbs lately. Sure, all "legal" foods, but just overeating. And overeating leads to unbalanced blood sugar and blood sugar spikes lead to cravings and cravings lead to overeating...

Feel pretty sheepish saying I hadn't cheated over the holidays, but I know better now. If it's not a cheat, then what is it when my blood sugar spikes, cravings set in, and I suffer from reflux and bloating and weight gain??? Sounds like a cheat to me.

A couple problem areas I'm seeing... one it was the holidays and I'm missing my grandparents and grieving that my mother still wants nothing to do with me. I know a large part of this is emotional overeating.

So I overdid it with legumes, namely red pepper hummus. I also overdid it with nuts, pepitas to be exact. Finished the bag of celery with the hummus. Instead of having a little hummus with my celery it was the other way around. Then the nuts, just sat down and ate till the bag was empty, about a cup. Christmas dinner was fine... a slice of ham, a serving of fauxtatoes, not much else. I dunno. Just feeling out of control today.

This morning I didn't make breakfast, just snarfed down about a full cup of almonds. Then there were the leftover brussel sprouts covered in leftover spaghetti sauce and a thick slice of mozzarella. Got home from Mass and had a sugar-free root beer with a huge serving of low-carb ice cream in it. I swear it feels like I ate way more than that.

And no water. And haven't been exercising. Oh yeah, spent the last three days cooking and cleaning for a crowd of visitors. Next year I'll be more forthright about asking for help.

I also notice I haven't been blogging as regularly, haven't been keeping track of my food. I think it was a little easier to quit drinking. I never had to keep track of what I'd been drinking. Either it was alcoholic or it wasn't. Food isn't quite that easy. I can drink water or soda or whatever all day long and never worry about it affecting my sobriety. If I overeat even the most Atkins induction friendly food... overeating is overeating. I'll suffer the ill effects as though I'd had a glazed jelly doughnut. Ok maybe not that bad, but pretty bad. I don't want to go there.

So... blogging more... FitDay more... more honesty...