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For a number of years I was on anti-depressants but weaned myself off them 7 years ago by using different coping skills. But I am now getting those old feelings back again and it is due to this diet ... kind of.
I have been on Atkins since late November 2009 and since then I have lost a total of 25 kg (55 pounds) on the scale. The problem is that I do not see it when I look in the mirror. Every single time I look in the mirror I see the same fat person staring back at me as before. I just don't see any difference!
It gets worse. Recently I was ill but continued losing weight on the scale steadily. Yesterday a manager and I were talking and he looks me up and down and says: "Since you were ill you belly has gotten bigger". The truth is that since I was ill I have lost an extra 5 kg on the scale!
Another acquaintance said something similar recently: "Your face is a little thinner but are you really on diet?"
These comments are really cutting and are almost definitely the basis of the start of this depression again. Logically I acknowledge it, but inside it doesn't matter. I am sure those who suffer along with me know what I mean by that.
General healthwise, I feel better since being on the diet and I have had to make new holes in my belt to stop my trousers from falling down. My clothes are also looser, so something is happening. It is just that I can't see it, and it seems that neither can other people!
At this stage I am still trying to be strong and keep those clouds from piling up too much but deep down I am feeling that I may lose this battle and end up being on meds again - which I don't want to do.
I am sorry for putting you through this ramble but I just needed a good rant to people who understand.
For a number of years I was on anti-depressants but weaned myself off them 7 years ago by using different coping skills. But I am now getting those old feelings back again and it is due to this diet ... kind of.
I have been on Atkins since late November 2009 and since then I have lost a total of 25 kg (55 pounds) on the scale. The problem is that I do not see it when I look in the mirror. Every single time I look in the mirror I see the same fat person staring back at me as before. I just don't see any difference!
It gets worse. Recently I was ill but continued losing weight on the scale steadily. Yesterday a manager and I were talking and he looks me up and down and says: "Since you were ill you belly has gotten bigger". The truth is that since I was ill I have lost an extra 5 kg on the scale!
Another acquaintance said something similar recently: "Your face is a little thinner but are you really on diet?"
These comments are really cutting and are almost definitely the basis of the start of this depression again. Logically I acknowledge it, but inside it doesn't matter. I am sure those who suffer along with me know what I mean by that.
General healthwise, I feel better since being on the diet and I have had to make new holes in my belt to stop my trousers from falling down. My clothes are also looser, so something is happening. It is just that I can't see it, and it seems that neither can other people!
At this stage I am still trying to be strong and keep those clouds from piling up too much but deep down I am feeling that I may lose this battle and end up being on meds again - which I don't want to do.
I am sorry for putting you through this ramble but I just needed a good rant to people who understand.
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