cheated, emotional eating..depressed

[drosa75]

So I am all of the above...had a tough day. Calories were off the chart due to turkey wings...who knew!

I just ate 12 cookies...I decided to come here to make myself accountable for the f&&& up.. I am 19 pds from goal, I ran like 3 miles today and I still f*** up. I know that I need to work on this emotional eating..

Fat has been such a part of my life that I almost don't know how to give it up. It was my security blanket through all of the physical and sexual abuse..I am so angry with myself..

1. Strict induction starting tmrw...
2. Work on emotional triggers..

I can beat this, I know I can...

[disciplined1]

Re: cheated, emotional eating..depressed

Im there with you. I went carb crazy today. no excercise either. I will strictly start induction again tomarrow.

[StarRuin]

Re: cheated, emotional eating..depressed

hey. Sure we all know how u feel. What I do is always have atkins bars near. I know u shouldnt have them in intro but it is better than cookies. When I feel like u did and need to eat i do, but usually fast food hamburgers (without the bun) and like i said atkins bars. i dont know, just an idea.
Good luck with starting again... it can be so hard but i think it is harder without atkins
Sasha

[drosa75]

Re: cheated, emotional eating..depressed

I think I will get the bars, it is better than cookies..

Thanks for the support ladies...

[Lisa M]

Re: cheated, emotional eating..depressed

((hugs)) to you.

Keep on chugging and learn from this moment You're doing an awesome job since you're only 19 pounds away from your goal!

[drosa75]

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Thanks for the hug!..That is what is so frustrating.. I walk/jog three miles today...but I wont give up..I am too close. I will win..

[Lisa M]

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You're welcome! We all need that big gloppy hug sometimes.

I'm so proud of you for your gung ho attitude and willing to keep going strong! You know you're going to make your goal...I know you will because you've got that "get out of my way, I'm coming through!" attitude . Nice!

**moving aside to avoid being ran over*** lol.

[drosa75]

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LOL

I am gung ho ...its just time for this damn weight to come off.

Thanks again for the pep. Words can not describe how much you have helped me this evening...

Thanks again....

[Lisa M]

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How you doing today?

[drosa75]

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I am doing better..didn't cheat but over eating. I know we are not supposed to watch calories but I def hit 1700 yesterday.

I did exercise and will exercise again today. I just signed up for boot camp..hope that will help.

Thanks for checking on me..its been a bad few days. dealing with alot of demons from the past..I will get through it.

Thanks

[hey_nelson]

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Hi dRosa..hope today is better for you. Ya know about the stuff of the past, we have to one day let go of it. I have blamed my past for some many of my actions then had the Epiphany one day I did not have to be directed by my past any more. K.

Go have a great today, Success Success Success!!! and Survive!!!!!!!

[drosa75]

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I have tried but my abuser just came out of jail..whats worse he is a very close relative..(Brother), he also raped my sister.

My aunt keeps talking about him (she is very close to him). She sees some sort of family reunion..crazy huh..

He has to do mandatory therapy..We all have girls, I refuse to let this man be around any of my kids/nieces/nephews etc..

I am trying to keep the demons at bay, its very hard..But I will succeed

is my escape!



Thanks for the support

[msnicksmom]

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Drosa75, it is amazing that you can even type the words. You have to keep the demonsa t bay, and you are right about your resolve about your kids. You are RIGHT. You are RIGHT, and don't let anyone convince you or strongarm you otherwise. You are RIGHT. You don't have to see or have a relationship witht his man til YOU are ready, if ever. You are worth it. (PS food doesn't really help, but you know that)

Hugs
Denise

[drosa75]

Re: cheated, emotional eating..depressed

Its very hard to discuss, I have lived with this my whole life. But I have learned not to be ashamed...

The past has made me who I am..I am successful at work. I have a wonderful daughter and a very close relatiohship with my other siblings. In general I am okay, now..

But sometimes, that scared little girl creeps up..the one who tried to look ugly by being fat..They one who used to swallow her anger with food.

Not anymore! Its time to take control. I will not be pressured by any relatives to have a relationship with this man, ever!

Sorry to rant..

[hey_nelson]

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yes dRosa, I do understand about what the scared little girl did. Take her by the hand and assure her she is alright and can do this.

love and prayers
patty