I'm having a different sort of struggle here with the eating ... I don't over eat or binge, I'm the opposite ... I have no big interest in eating right now. I'm not trying to starve myself, I just don't feel hungry and its difficult to be in a space of wanting to eat.
If any of you have read in my journal, you'll know that I have been under a lot of stress for several months (boyfriend/fiance' walked out on me - but still phones to tell me how much he loves me ... my Dad passed away in late November, I spent the holidays alone this year for the very first time ever ... my sister was diagnosed with cancer - but is fine now, the business that my ex and I started together, I have had to let go of - I just couldn't do it all myself ... I am still recovering from a severe sprain injury to my leg and ankle from this summer and so exercise is slow going ... )
There are some days when I have to force myself to eat, and most days I know that I am not eating enough food.
I am seeing an amazing holistic doctor who is helping me with basic health and the emotional things, so I am at least on the right path there ... but I have seen a pattern here - when I am alone I just don't want to eat. When my ex was here I was really focused on preparing healthy foods for us - but now I just don't seem interested.
I've requested a mentor on the forums - I need to be more accountable with eating, but so far no one has contacted me.
I am working to focus on being healthy, getting smaller and moving past all of the stress and trauma of the past months ... It is my goal and I will get there, but I think I need a little help now and then.
Thanks for letting me ramble on ...
Orann
If any of you have read in my journal, you'll know that I have been under a lot of stress for several months (boyfriend/fiance' walked out on me - but still phones to tell me how much he loves me ... my Dad passed away in late November, I spent the holidays alone this year for the very first time ever ... my sister was diagnosed with cancer - but is fine now, the business that my ex and I started together, I have had to let go of - I just couldn't do it all myself ... I am still recovering from a severe sprain injury to my leg and ankle from this summer and so exercise is slow going ... )
There are some days when I have to force myself to eat, and most days I know that I am not eating enough food.
I am seeing an amazing holistic doctor who is helping me with basic health and the emotional things, so I am at least on the right path there ... but I have seen a pattern here - when I am alone I just don't want to eat. When my ex was here I was really focused on preparing healthy foods for us - but now I just don't seem interested.
I've requested a mentor on the forums - I need to be more accountable with eating, but so far no one has contacted me.
I am working to focus on being healthy, getting smaller and moving past all of the stress and trauma of the past months ... It is my goal and I will get there, but I think I need a little help now and then.
Thanks for letting me ramble on ...
Orann







...Was in HEAVEN -got to 150, for awhile, then got too busy, and gave in too much... and... OK holding pattern "keep it together..." 





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