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i was very angry with two family members this past week because they were taking advantage of me financially again, and I just wasn't able to commit to induction with a whole hearted effort like I wanted to. I felt insanely angry all week long. i didn't cheat in major ways but some little ones. i did have some dark chockolate carb candy on Valentines. i just feel angry at the whole world right now and i don't like myself either. it is hard for me to care about a diet when everything else in life feels so wretched. and i know that I can only hurt myself. but nevertheless, sometimes I choose to hurt myself. why, why, why don't I care enough about myself to do what is best for me? How can I make myself do what I'm supposed to do? I have had some success since I started trying to be low carb. I haven't had bread, or potatos or baked goods in almost a month. This is with my husband bringing home muffins and making rice and trying to sabotage me right and left. I'm going to the gym every other day. I'm drinking more water. But I'm just not nailing the diet to perfection. My portions are too big, I still hate salad, I still crave things that are not allowed on induction. I still find myself trying to work out sneaky ways to get stuff that I want. I really, truly admire the people here who can just obey the diet to perfection. Why am I so weak? My esteem is on the carpet. And I know some may answer with a "get it right or else" perception - but I don't respond positively well to this kind of feedback. It makes me want to binge in definace. Which I know is childish. But thats what I do. For me to give up bread and potatos and baked good is actually a very big deal for me. It is something I have never done before. I'm pretty freaked out just doing that one thing. I am balking at changing so many things at once. It feels very stressful to me. And yes, I have read the book and I understand the reasoning behind induction and that there are sound scientific reasons for going cold turkey. (bit of a pun there...) but I already feel overwhelmed by the things I am doing already. And I don't know how to cope with severe emotional distress without overeating. I won't listen to reason when I'm like that. Sorry for the long post - feel like a psycho here. Why is something other people can do so easily, just sticking to a diet, so difficult for me?
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Just take a deep breath and blow all you anger out. You loseing weight has nothing to do with the people you are mad at. You are doing this for yourself. If you did cheat then just try to get back on track. Next time you get mad about something go beat up a pillow. Losing weight has been hard for me also, fighting depression for the last several years. But this is very important to me I want to get contol of my life. Just think about how you would like to feel and look. We are here for you if you need us. :hug -
You aren't weak and most of the newer members do not consider this induction a piece of cake.
What I do find is that when everything is so crazy around me (which I don't have control over) it gives me a certain little satisfaction that I somewhat have control over this way of eating and my body.
Give yourself a big pat on the back for abstaining from the bread, potatoes etc...... because that is a big thing.
I know that you read the book and read the posts here so there's no point in telling you what you have to do. IF ONLY you could get past the 2week clean induction and drink your water, I promise you that the cravings will subside.
I do know how you feel, I really do. Eventually it will click...the whole mind -body thing. Give it a try for yourself. Let this be your weapon against a chaotic world. Start with yourself.
The absolute worst thing that you can do is to berate yourself and give up. You are worth more than that. Good Luck to you and keep coming back - it helps. :hugFemale- Restarted Jan. 15, 2005
S/W - 230 5'3"
C/W - 210
Will weigh monthly.
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just for today
thank you both for your comments. i will not give up.
today is a new day. which gives me an idea.
perhaps if I put my focus on today, just today, sticking to induction for today, I can find the process less intimidating. kind of like AA....
something for me to think about....Comment
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just for today
thank you both for your comments. i will not give up.
today is a new day. which gives me an idea.
perhaps if I put my focus on today, just today, sticking to induction for today, I can find the process less intimidating. kind of like AA....
something for me to think about....Comment
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Hey Tabykat, we miss you on the buddy board. Glad you still with us regardless of whats going on in your life.
Families can be such a stress point in our lives. I can understand that. Hang in there.
41 pounds down and counting
If you don't know where you are going, you will wind up somewhere else. - Yogi BerraComment
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if you are feeling overwhelmed by all the induction changes you can back into Atkins as Mre Atkins calls it and cut down gradualy on your carbs and refined foods until you are in kletosis and losing weight fo course you will not get the appetite suppression doing induction gives you not the craving controls but if you are more worriesd about making big changes then speedier weight loss with those controls do the backing in method.
happy low cabingby the book atkinseer
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goalie 5/04 at 167 with under 15% body fat ADBB Presidents exercise Challenge
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