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I dealt with anorexia and bulemia through my teen yrs. Went from a little more than healthy size 13/14 almost 15, to a 3 in 2 yrs. Yo-yoed between 3-5 for another yr and a half.
It was far more serious than just not eating enough. 1 went 7 days once without eating ANYTHING. I never felt more powerful or in control when I resisted the urge to eat. The longer I went without eating the more powerful and beautiful and in control I felt. The moment I ate anything however, no matter how small, I could look in the mirror and litterally see weight gain 5 minutes after eating so even when I did eat I threw up. Was it all in my head or what it simply water weight my body was desperately trying to hold onto when it got a little food? I dont know, probably a little of both.
I got pregnant and simply trading those eating disorders for another. Overeating.My food addiction never went away just manifested itself in another form. Instead of constantly restricting myself, I had no control at all. I have had an all or nothing sense about me since. I have to do a diet strict and to the tee or not at all. I starve myself, or binge constantly. This is still a struggle but I strive to find a balance and tell myself I dont have to be perfect.
Being on atkins is the only time in my life I ever remember not feeling like food consumed my everythought and I dont plan my day around food anymore. Food is now something I think about when Im hungry, or when someone else brings it up, or when grocery shopping or planning a new dish. No longer the first thought that pops into my head as i wake up or my reason for getting up. I wont go so far as to be naive enough to think Im cured but atkins sure made my addiction and eating disorder managable to wear I am the one in control of my life now.
The minute I quit atkins last time, I was out of control again. Hoarding food, eating every hour practically. I ate a whole box of granola bars in one day. No matter how much I ate, I never felt full physically but mostly mentally. I was always craving something. I have only recently learned it wasnt physical food I was craving but something to fill me emotionally. I was trying so hard to change the way I felt but I couldnt do it with food.
I thank God everyday for atkins and I know now that I can NEVER stray from this WOL or I let the monster out of the cage again. I cant tell you what exactly about atkins (the science behind it) that allows me to overcome my addiction as long as Im on this WOL but so far I have. I am being very careful though as I move up through the rungs taking notice of any food that may trigger a craving, watching sweeteners (huge sugar addict here) and watching my portions. Several times I have caught myself still doing "Mindless Eating". Continuing to eat whats on my plate even though I am satisfied, or even full. This has been the hardest to tackle because I HATE wasting food especially when money is so tight right now.
Good luck to anyone else who is currently overcoming a food addiction/eating disorder.
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It was far more serious than just not eating enough. 1 went 7 days once without eating ANYTHING. I never felt more powerful or in control when I resisted the urge to eat. The longer I went without eating the more powerful and beautiful and in control I felt. The moment I ate anything however, no matter how small, I could look in the mirror and litterally see weight gain 5 minutes after eating so even when I did eat I threw up. Was it all in my head or what it simply water weight my body was desperately trying to hold onto when it got a little food? I dont know, probably a little of both.
I got pregnant and simply trading those eating disorders for another. Overeating.My food addiction never went away just manifested itself in another form. Instead of constantly restricting myself, I had no control at all. I have had an all or nothing sense about me since. I have to do a diet strict and to the tee or not at all. I starve myself, or binge constantly. This is still a struggle but I strive to find a balance and tell myself I dont have to be perfect.
Being on atkins is the only time in my life I ever remember not feeling like food consumed my everythought and I dont plan my day around food anymore. Food is now something I think about when Im hungry, or when someone else brings it up, or when grocery shopping or planning a new dish. No longer the first thought that pops into my head as i wake up or my reason for getting up. I wont go so far as to be naive enough to think Im cured but atkins sure made my addiction and eating disorder managable to wear I am the one in control of my life now.
The minute I quit atkins last time, I was out of control again. Hoarding food, eating every hour practically. I ate a whole box of granola bars in one day. No matter how much I ate, I never felt full physically but mostly mentally. I was always craving something. I have only recently learned it wasnt physical food I was craving but something to fill me emotionally. I was trying so hard to change the way I felt but I couldnt do it with food.
I thank God everyday for atkins and I know now that I can NEVER stray from this WOL or I let the monster out of the cage again. I cant tell you what exactly about atkins (the science behind it) that allows me to overcome my addiction as long as Im on this WOL but so far I have. I am being very careful though as I move up through the rungs taking notice of any food that may trigger a craving, watching sweeteners (huge sugar addict here) and watching my portions. Several times I have caught myself still doing "Mindless Eating". Continuing to eat whats on my plate even though I am satisfied, or even full. This has been the hardest to tackle because I HATE wasting food especially when money is so tight right now.
Good luck to anyone else who is currently overcoming a food addiction/eating disorder.
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