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Long story.....Haven't seen a doc in years, went after the dentist took my bp and it was 177/106. Was put on mild bp meds, had been on before, but was able to go off. Doc ordered complete blood work, with glucose, cholesterol and such. Now I had all these tests prescribed before, but because I had to go to a lab for it, I crumbled up the paper and never went. Well, new doc they take your blood while your sitting there, so no getting out of it, lol. History, when I was 125 pounds, uhmmm 15 years ago, my cholesterol was over 200, but doc said it was okay cause my good cholesterol was okay, and I excercised and such, but have a severe family history of heart disease on my mom's side. Mom is fine, but her parents and siblings aren't all doing so well, both grandparents died before 60 of cardiovascular disease, uncle who didn't smoke, was a semi pro ball player had to have triple bypass at 40 and is totally disabled by cardiovascular disease now. Dad's side of the family, no cardiovascular disease, tend to live old (grandma is 9
but dad was a smoker and died at 57 from lung cancer. Okay so here's me, turned 40 last week, lately smoke like a chimney and am an on and off again Atkineer and feel like **** most days. I really know if I keep on the current path I will die before I'm 60, but a part of me keeps saying it's too late to make that much differnce. My biggest dilema right now is that my new doc has this automated system where your can call and get your test results via voicemail 24/7, but I'm afraid to call. My results were supposed to be ready Friday, this is almost Wednesday and I can't bring myself to call. I tend to have anxiety attacks and I think that having my results will just make things worse as far as how I feel. I truely feel like a heart attack waiting to happen. So what have I been doing about all this? Sitting here smoking cigs and drinking beer to relieve my anxiety. I know, not a cure but........................................ I need advice, reassurance, and hugs from anyone who has fealt like I do tonight.
but dad was a smoker and died at 57 from lung cancer. Okay so here's me, turned 40 last week, lately smoke like a chimney and am an on and off again Atkineer and feel like **** most days. I really know if I keep on the current path I will die before I'm 60, but a part of me keeps saying it's too late to make that much differnce. My biggest dilema right now is that my new doc has this automated system where your can call and get your test results via voicemail 24/7, but I'm afraid to call. My results were supposed to be ready Friday, this is almost Wednesday and I can't bring myself to call. I tend to have anxiety attacks and I think that having my results will just make things worse as far as how I feel. I truely feel like a heart attack waiting to happen. So what have I been doing about all this? Sitting here smoking cigs and drinking beer to relieve my anxiety. I know, not a cure but........................................ I need advice, reassurance, and hugs from anyone who has fealt like I do tonight.
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