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CJ, my deployed boyfriend, will be in CA tomorrow morning. (YAY!!!!!!) They're shipping him straight to his next assignment in CA but giving him next week off. Our plan was that after he got settled in (presumably in a few days) He'd fly out here and then we'd drive to Flagstaff and spend the rest of the week in reunited happiness.
But I've been very nervous about that....almost paranoid that something would come up and somehow our plans would be shattered. From what I understand it's normal. But it's not like me.
Well, it happened. There was an email waiting for me when I woke up this morning. His uncle is in the hospital in Arkansas, apparently very sick with cancer, and he needs to go say his goodbyes. He said that he would know more tomorrow, and that he's going to call me as soon as he can.
Of course I'm really sorry about his Uncle...and of course it's important that he go say goodbye. But DARN IT!!! I've been waiting almost a year, as patiently as possible, without hearing his voice once!!! I even lived through 5 months of not hearing from him at all!!! And now I may not get to see him for a while longer??? When his week of vacation is over, who knows when he'll get time off again. THAT WEEK BELONGS TO ME!!!! I've arranged time off of work and care for DS and everything else!!!
Breathe JoAnne....breathe. Let's focus on the main thing. Christopher will be back in the states and safe. You'll be in constant contact with him again. With him in California and you in Arizona, it'll be easier to see him.
BUT NEXT WEEK BELONGS TO ME!!! I deserve it, and I've earned it. I'm feeling very selfish right now, and I think I have a right to be. I'm going to be raging about this all day.
Sigh.....
~JoAnne
But I've been very nervous about that....almost paranoid that something would come up and somehow our plans would be shattered. From what I understand it's normal. But it's not like me.
Well, it happened. There was an email waiting for me when I woke up this morning. His uncle is in the hospital in Arkansas, apparently very sick with cancer, and he needs to go say his goodbyes. He said that he would know more tomorrow, and that he's going to call me as soon as he can.
Of course I'm really sorry about his Uncle...and of course it's important that he go say goodbye. But DARN IT!!! I've been waiting almost a year, as patiently as possible, without hearing his voice once!!! I even lived through 5 months of not hearing from him at all!!! And now I may not get to see him for a while longer??? When his week of vacation is over, who knows when he'll get time off again. THAT WEEK BELONGS TO ME!!!! I've arranged time off of work and care for DS and everything else!!!
Breathe JoAnne....breathe. Let's focus on the main thing. Christopher will be back in the states and safe. You'll be in constant contact with him again. With him in California and you in Arizona, it'll be easier to see him.
BUT NEXT WEEK BELONGS TO ME!!! I deserve it, and I've earned it. I'm feeling very selfish right now, and I think I have a right to be. I'm going to be raging about this all day.
Sigh.....
~JoAnne
You have every right to feel the way you feel, and I don't blame you a bit.
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