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Yesterday was my first day on atkins, and I felt great, until I got home... as soon as I got home, I wanted to eat anything and everything... I was parked in front of the TV and I just wanted to eat like mad.
I've been going through my past looking for a pattern to my up and down yo-yo weight and I was kinda startled to put something together...
I started gaining weight when I was about 10 years old... I remember a lot of time spent in front of the TV as a kid, zoned out, sitting on the couch, binge eating.... This continued till I was about 13, and I got grounded hard core. (I ended up grounded for 6 months, it was one of those "if you screw up, your grounding time re-starts" things. Anyway, my father took my TV from me which was in my bedroom. After about two weeks of listening to nothing but my stereo, my concentration levels went through the roof and I started cleaning all the time. My room was always spotless, my grades went up, and my weight went down by about 30 pounds.... I stayed away from the TV for quite awhile, just cuz I preferred music. I was thin until 9th grade when I got sucked into the TV again, and my room was a pig-sty all the time. Then 10th grade, went back to music and being in my room ( moping hormonal teen who wouldn't leave her room) but I lost the weight again and my room started being clean again all the time... hrmmm...
After I graduated, I found myself in front of not only the TV but my boyfriends ( now DH's) computer... the weight piled back on... stayed on for a long time.... and my cleaning went out the window completely. We broke up ( for awhile) and about 2 years later, I didn't have a computer or a TV in my small apartment. I started dropping weight like mad... and kept dropping. Dropped 110 pounds, kept it off for 3 years, and you guessed it, my apartment looked fantastic and in order... until I got a computer..... started eating pizza..... haven't been thin since...
Now, granted, I'm a web-designer, I can't get away with not being on a computer, but during the day I'm fine because I have other things I have to concentrate on... but I've decided that at home, in the evenings, no computer, and no TV. ( Except once a week, I have to watch My Name is Earl.)
I think that my brain does funky stuff when it zones out to watch TV. Maybe it's because I don't have to think, just watch, and so I'm in a sense, my brain is just in off mode...
I'm gonna ground myself from the TV/Computer at home and see what happens.
I've been going through my past looking for a pattern to my up and down yo-yo weight and I was kinda startled to put something together...
I started gaining weight when I was about 10 years old... I remember a lot of time spent in front of the TV as a kid, zoned out, sitting on the couch, binge eating.... This continued till I was about 13, and I got grounded hard core. (I ended up grounded for 6 months, it was one of those "if you screw up, your grounding time re-starts" things. Anyway, my father took my TV from me which was in my bedroom. After about two weeks of listening to nothing but my stereo, my concentration levels went through the roof and I started cleaning all the time. My room was always spotless, my grades went up, and my weight went down by about 30 pounds.... I stayed away from the TV for quite awhile, just cuz I preferred music. I was thin until 9th grade when I got sucked into the TV again, and my room was a pig-sty all the time. Then 10th grade, went back to music and being in my room ( moping hormonal teen who wouldn't leave her room) but I lost the weight again and my room started being clean again all the time... hrmmm...
After I graduated, I found myself in front of not only the TV but my boyfriends ( now DH's) computer... the weight piled back on... stayed on for a long time.... and my cleaning went out the window completely. We broke up ( for awhile) and about 2 years later, I didn't have a computer or a TV in my small apartment. I started dropping weight like mad... and kept dropping. Dropped 110 pounds, kept it off for 3 years, and you guessed it, my apartment looked fantastic and in order... until I got a computer..... started eating pizza..... haven't been thin since...
Now, granted, I'm a web-designer, I can't get away with not being on a computer, but during the day I'm fine because I have other things I have to concentrate on... but I've decided that at home, in the evenings, no computer, and no TV. ( Except once a week, I have to watch My Name is Earl.)
I think that my brain does funky stuff when it zones out to watch TV. Maybe it's because I don't have to think, just watch, and so I'm in a sense, my brain is just in off mode...
I'm gonna ground myself from the TV/Computer at home and see what happens.
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