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It's been a good year and a hard year. It started out with a slew of anxiety/panic attacks, heart palpitations (PVCs actually, and I still have those daily) and a thyroid that went to the hyper side of things, both because the hashi's flared up but also because I was getting too much thrypid replacement and the T3 in the armour became an irritant. I was switched to Synthroid this summer once the Dr's figured out what was going on but they started me at a super low dose so I swung drastically back to the hypo end.
With all of these things happening the only thing it seemed I had control over was my Atkins. I never cheated because it was so important to me not to have everything screwed up in my life. I used Fitday religiously, tracking everything I popped into my mouth, and I was working out daily... either by going to Curves, walking or going to the gym.
As my thyroid counts climbed up after switching over to synthroid (TSH was 24 out of .5 to 5.0 range) I lost a lot of enthusiasm for working out and it was a struggle just getting out of bed and working. I was so tired. I would come here every day and read but I rarely posted, it was too big an effort and my brain and body felt constantly drained.
In the past 2 months as my TSH started coming back into more normal ranges (it was 12 a few weeks ago and now 8 this last appt) I'm starting to feel more like myself but somewhere along the way I stopped doing everything that was working for me. While I haven't cheated, haven't gone off plan, my work outs are still piddly - maybe 1.5 hours a week total. I constantly munch while I sit here and work. It's all legal stuff but I think I'm packing away a ton more calories than I should be. The reason I THINK this is because I haven't cracked open fitday to track anything in almost 3 months.
This is going to change. I'm dusting off Fitday and I'm going back to tracking everything. I'm going back to either induction or the veggie rung for a few days to circle my wagons (I'm on berries right now) and I'm going to stop eating at this computer. I seriously wonder how many extra meals I'm getting in a day by this mindless munching. I'm going to start working out the way I used to and trust the Dr's when they say the PVCs are harmless rather than listen to people who tell me losing weight or Atkins is causing them. I did a stress echo treadmill test and was told I had a great athletic heart, very impressive for someone my size (what a backhanded compliment LOL). But I am letting fear, doubt and lethargy rule my life and I can't stand it anymore.
I've had many successes this past year, from great weight loss to learning tools to control and deal with the anxiety. The anxiety has gone from a loud constant roar to a dull murmer most days. When a panic attack does happen, like while I'm shopping for instance, I've learned to go with the flow rather than fight it and it's made things much better usually. I've stayed nonsmoking (coming up on 2 years now!) and all of that is stuff to be proud of. I just want this coming year to be as successful but unless I start changing bad habits I've fallen into, it's not going to.
Thanks for letting me ramble. My one year anniversary is in about 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to being able to say my 2nd year is starting out the way I want because I'm back in control
With all of these things happening the only thing it seemed I had control over was my Atkins. I never cheated because it was so important to me not to have everything screwed up in my life. I used Fitday religiously, tracking everything I popped into my mouth, and I was working out daily... either by going to Curves, walking or going to the gym.
As my thyroid counts climbed up after switching over to synthroid (TSH was 24 out of .5 to 5.0 range) I lost a lot of enthusiasm for working out and it was a struggle just getting out of bed and working. I was so tired. I would come here every day and read but I rarely posted, it was too big an effort and my brain and body felt constantly drained.
In the past 2 months as my TSH started coming back into more normal ranges (it was 12 a few weeks ago and now 8 this last appt) I'm starting to feel more like myself but somewhere along the way I stopped doing everything that was working for me. While I haven't cheated, haven't gone off plan, my work outs are still piddly - maybe 1.5 hours a week total. I constantly munch while I sit here and work. It's all legal stuff but I think I'm packing away a ton more calories than I should be. The reason I THINK this is because I haven't cracked open fitday to track anything in almost 3 months.
This is going to change. I'm dusting off Fitday and I'm going back to tracking everything. I'm going back to either induction or the veggie rung for a few days to circle my wagons (I'm on berries right now) and I'm going to stop eating at this computer. I seriously wonder how many extra meals I'm getting in a day by this mindless munching. I'm going to start working out the way I used to and trust the Dr's when they say the PVCs are harmless rather than listen to people who tell me losing weight or Atkins is causing them. I did a stress echo treadmill test and was told I had a great athletic heart, very impressive for someone my size (what a backhanded compliment LOL). But I am letting fear, doubt and lethargy rule my life and I can't stand it anymore.
I've had many successes this past year, from great weight loss to learning tools to control and deal with the anxiety. The anxiety has gone from a loud constant roar to a dull murmer most days. When a panic attack does happen, like while I'm shopping for instance, I've learned to go with the flow rather than fight it and it's made things much better usually. I've stayed nonsmoking (coming up on 2 years now!) and all of that is stuff to be proud of. I just want this coming year to be as successful but unless I start changing bad habits I've fallen into, it's not going to.
Thanks for letting me ramble. My one year anniversary is in about 2 weeks. I'm looking forward to being able to say my 2nd year is starting out the way I want because I'm back in control
Happy New Years 
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