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Well, I disappeared for a few but I had my reasons 
Sorry in advance if I ramble but maybe it will make sense and help someone else out there with the same feelings or problems.
First -- Hectic doesn't even begin to describe life the past few months. I started Atkins in 01/05 4 months into a marital seperation (my idea((both!)). Atkins and myself was a great thing to concentrate on. Well... I lost, felt much better.. then life hit me. Wow, I was going to be divorced soon-- got a new boss at work who is much more anal than my last one -- holidays -- and the big one.. I was quickly approaching 100lbs lost. Weird to be scared? Well, I was and am still. It has been a LONG time (7 years or so) since I weighed what I do now. People at work and in general look and comment a lot on the weight lost and how good I look. That brings a whole new level of uncomfortable to me. I am one who likes to just blend into the background for the most part.
So, in having lost weight before only to end the diet and regain-- scared of that 100 lost mark and every other change in life happening to me.... I took a vacation from here for a few months. I needed to know I could do this on my own without faithfully logging in every night. To make sure my reality was going to work and I wasn't going to be dissappointed again when I regained it all as I eased back into real life.
So, I took a break Not from Atkins totally (though I did relax a lot at Christmas, cookies are a weakness!) I have maintained my 90lbs lost and feel great that I survived in the big world all by my lonesome! I didn't give in, I found myself still making good choices with food and automatically thinking about if it was something I could have or not. It was a great feeling to think after a meal that I made choices and didn't even realize it. I was very impressed with myself.
So... I am back now on the boards. I think mentally I am ready to get more serious and tackle a few more pounds.
Sorry in advance if I ramble but maybe it will make sense and help someone else out there with the same feelings or problems.First -- Hectic doesn't even begin to describe life the past few months. I started Atkins in 01/05 4 months into a marital seperation (my idea((both!)). Atkins and myself was a great thing to concentrate on. Well... I lost, felt much better.. then life hit me. Wow, I was going to be divorced soon-- got a new boss at work who is much more anal than my last one -- holidays -- and the big one.. I was quickly approaching 100lbs lost. Weird to be scared? Well, I was and am still. It has been a LONG time (7 years or so) since I weighed what I do now. People at work and in general look and comment a lot on the weight lost and how good I look. That brings a whole new level of uncomfortable to me. I am one who likes to just blend into the background for the most part.
So, in having lost weight before only to end the diet and regain-- scared of that 100 lost mark and every other change in life happening to me.... I took a vacation from here for a few months. I needed to know I could do this on my own without faithfully logging in every night. To make sure my reality was going to work and I wasn't going to be dissappointed again when I regained it all as I eased back into real life.
So, I took a break
Not from Atkins totally (though I did relax a lot at Christmas, cookies are a weakness!) I have maintained my 90lbs lost and feel great that I survived in the big world all by my lonesome! I didn't give in, I found myself still making good choices with food and automatically thinking about if it was something I could have or not. It was a great feeling to think after a meal that I made choices and didn't even realize it. I was very impressed with myself. So... I am back now on the boards. I think mentally I am ready to get more serious and tackle a few more pounds.
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