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Here it is...7:53am on a Saturday morning. I've already bathed and dressed. I've also been up all night battling an upset stomach, a mild bout of diahrea, nausea and lightheadedness.
Yesterday, I made the choice to go off-plan. I debated posted about it here because I didn't want to hear/read the "I told you so's," but decided that #1: I made that CHOICE, so I can't really whine about the repercussions. #2: Perhaps someone else is considering doing the same, and I can spare them what I am going through this morning
Oddly enough, I don't really feel "guilty" per se. Don't ask me why. I feel like
, but "guilty" is not the emotion I'm feeling. I've been having a very, very difficult time with this WOE for about the past week, I think for a number of reasons that have absolutely NOTHING to do with Atkins.
I'm on medication that has me pretty messed up physically and emotionally. I'm working on a grant to save my job which is due in a few days, and me and my boss have been butting heads A LOT this week (I'm sure because of the stress). And finally TOM. It's been rough.
Yesteday, I just got to the point where I said, " it."
For those of you considering doing what I did, let me just tell you (it's so cliche'), "It's not worth it." I am sick as a dog this morning. I've NEVER had even an ALCOHOL hangover that has felt like this.
Yesterday's breakfast
1 sauceless smoked rib
Smoked chicken leg quarter
2"x2" square vegan zucchini bread (cheat #1)
Lunch
Smoked sausage and sauerkraut
1/2 SLIVER of cake (cheat #2) from the cake lady at work...yes, she came BACK to the dept after being gone only a week WITH cake in tow for a friend's birthday). Immediately after eating my 1/2 a sliver of cake, I felt lightheaded. That should have been my first clue...but no...it got worse...
Dinner
TGI Fridays
Spinach-Artichoke Dip with chips (The dip isn't so bad...the chips are TERRIBLE...a definite NO-NO). We requested the veggie sticks with them, as well as the chips, but TGIF failed to put the veggies in our carryout container, and when I got home, I just ate the dip w/some chips)
Pecan-crusted chicken salad w/mandarin oranges, cranberrys, blue cheese and balsamic vinaigrette (I thought I was being sort of "good" by eating "good carbs").
"Atkins-friendly cheesecake" for dessert
That is what I ate yesterday. Now, I told myself I could have ANYTHING I wanted and this is what I chose. Look at my menu very closely. Yes, I went off-plan, but I clearly didn't go as hog wild as I could have. I stayed away from heavy pastas and regular desserts. I limited myself to a SMALL...very, very SMALL piece of cake, and I am miserable today for it.
The most shocking and telling thing about this whole experience to me is how much difficulty my body is having dealing with those carbs. There is no doubt in my mind that the two WORSE things I had were the cake and the tortilla chips. Not that any of it was "good," but after only a month, my body was obviously clean.
Now, I'm a mess. I'm restarting induction as of today. If you're thinking about it, don't do it. I can't believe that food can make you feel like this. Anything that makes you feel THIS bad can't be good for you. Have you ever heard of anybody having a "veggie" hangover???
Talk about the school of hardknocks. Don't get me wrong. I did it, and I have to pay the price, but I'm really, really surprised at how negatively my body handled those foods.
Yesterday, I made the choice to go off-plan. I debated posted about it here because I didn't want to hear/read the "I told you so's," but decided that #1: I made that CHOICE, so I can't really whine about the repercussions. #2: Perhaps someone else is considering doing the same, and I can spare them what I am going through this morning
Oddly enough, I don't really feel "guilty" per se. Don't ask me why. I feel like
, but "guilty" is not the emotion I'm feeling. I've been having a very, very difficult time with this WOE for about the past week, I think for a number of reasons that have absolutely NOTHING to do with Atkins.I'm on medication that has me pretty messed up physically and emotionally. I'm working on a grant to save my job which is due in a few days, and me and my boss have been butting heads A LOT this week (I'm sure because of the stress). And finally TOM. It's been rough.
Yesteday, I just got to the point where I said, "
it." For those of you considering doing what I did, let me just tell you (it's so cliche'), "It's not worth it." I am sick as a dog this morning. I've NEVER had even an ALCOHOL hangover that has felt like this.
Yesterday's breakfast
1 sauceless smoked rib
Smoked chicken leg quarter
2"x2" square vegan zucchini bread (cheat #1)
Lunch
Smoked sausage and sauerkraut
1/2 SLIVER of cake (cheat #2) from the cake lady at work...yes, she came BACK to the dept after being gone only a week WITH cake in tow for a friend's birthday). Immediately after eating my 1/2 a sliver of cake, I felt lightheaded. That should have been my first clue...but no...it got worse...
Dinner
TGI Fridays
Spinach-Artichoke Dip with chips (The dip isn't so bad...the chips are TERRIBLE...a definite NO-NO). We requested the veggie sticks with them, as well as the chips, but TGIF failed to put the veggies in our carryout container, and when I got home, I just ate the dip w/some chips)
Pecan-crusted chicken salad w/mandarin oranges, cranberrys, blue cheese and balsamic vinaigrette (I thought I was being sort of "good" by eating "good carbs").
"Atkins-friendly cheesecake" for dessert
That is what I ate yesterday. Now, I told myself I could have ANYTHING I wanted and this is what I chose. Look at my menu very closely. Yes, I went off-plan, but I clearly didn't go as hog wild as I could have. I stayed away from heavy pastas and regular desserts. I limited myself to a SMALL...very, very SMALL piece of cake, and I am miserable today for it.
The most shocking and telling thing about this whole experience to me is how much difficulty my body is having dealing with those carbs. There is no doubt in my mind that the two WORSE things I had were the cake and the tortilla chips. Not that any of it was "good," but after only a month, my body was obviously clean.
Now, I'm a mess. I'm restarting induction as of today. If you're thinking about it, don't do it. I can't believe that food can make you feel like this. Anything that makes you feel THIS bad can't be good for you. Have you ever heard of anybody having a "veggie" hangover???
Talk about the school of hardknocks. Don't get me wrong. I did it, and I have to pay the price, but I'm really, really surprised at how negatively my body handled those foods.
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