Now I'm painfully aware of how far I strayed

[jroche5998]

As many of you know I have fallen off the wagon too many times to count. Well this is the furthest that I have fallen, and today I am paying for it. I am in my second day of truly clean induction and I am about as sick with the induction flu as I have ever been. If I didn't know that this will go away I'd quit now. But wow is my withdrawal bad right now, I just want to crawl into bed and die (not really, but you know what I mean).

I do not want to go through this again.(almost like swearing off booze the day after a bender)

[Richt]

Re: Now I'm painfully aware of how far I strayed

Jim, I have never done this on the board before, but I am going to give you an extremely manly and purely plutonic


As you said though, at least you know the "flu" will go away.

All the best, and I hope you start losing soon.

Rich

[Jellybean1984]

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Richt how cute What support!!! jroche congrads on starting again, just remember this to shall pass! one day it will be nothing but a memory You look fantastic, You'll do great!

[dreamof145]

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Jim,
<HUG>. You've been through a lot of struggles the past year with the fire and your baby girl and you've never given up. You will make it this time - you know the ropes and with each attempt you get stronger and more committed. We are all fighting this battle together.....When you need a lift, just holler.

Recently I was drowning in personal problems and what helped me was re-reading my journal and re-connecting with the reasons I wanted to get healthy and lose the weight. My visit to my 'old life' gave me the strength and determination to not look back but keep going forward. Don't dwell on the fact that you've fallen off the wagon...instead hang on and be grateful that you are back on and going forward. Many people fall and don't get back on. You are a winner and part of the ADBB family. We are all here for you!!!

[2big4mysize]

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welcome back from the darkside.
Sowhat you doing for the exercise part of your plan?

[iyamamaschke]

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J I know where you are comming from I fell of sooo many times I feel embarassed to ever tell you But, I did keep trying oevr and over and finally got it through my THICK SKULL it's pretty PIG HEADED that I had to change MY LIFE not just my eating. YOU can do it Jim you can do it. Heck if I can so can you.

(((HUGS)))

[sombersusie]

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Jim congrats on finding the strength to start again and even more to being honest with everyone here. It sounds like you've been through some stuff at home and I pray that things will be better for you there. Now you can pick yourself up, get some advil for that headache and move on! Go Jim Go Jim Go!!!!!!

[Elizellen]

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Glad you are back on track, Jim

[changing]

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It is so tough to make that decision to start again and it takes a lot of resolve. I'm happy you came back! It can really be the hardest part of this woe, honestly--going right back on plan after a wagon fall/cheat...

[fr1endly2]

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GLAD your getting back on track!
SORRY The induction flu is hitting you hard!
IT WILL GO AWAY!

KEEP up the great work we all know you will
succeed!

ALL THE BEST
LISA

[Discolemonade]

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Welcome Back !!
Hope you feel better soon!
Good to see you

[goin2Bgood]

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Jim, good job getting back on! Dreamof145 is right, so many people who fall off don't.. as long as you keep on keeping on you'll do well

PS.. sorry for thread hijack but iyamamaschke, you're looking GOOOD!!

[jroche5998]

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Well thanks for all of the encouraging words. A two hour nap helped tremendously. I hope I'm over the hump, and tomorrow or the next day is my up energy day. My knees are cramping a bit and I know it's not dehydration but it feels like that, some ibuprofen before bed should do the trick.

welcome back from the darkside.
Sowhat you doing for the exercise part of your plan?

As usual it will be running, among other things. I still have my goal of twelve road races in 2006, which will include the half marathon that I missed last year due to my daughter.

No more fooling around, this is the year I make goal.

[divaindubai]

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Jim You can do this!

I know what you mean about falling off, I fell off for pretty well a month in November/December, during the time when my mom came to visit and of course she went back to Canada about a week or so before Christmas, but when she was here she was baking butter tarts, and all these yummy things. She was not here that long, so we were rushing around trying to show her as much of this place as we could, and needless it was stressful and we were eating out different places, etc. I gained around 12 pounds or so, and I'm only now just finally lost pretty well much of what I had gained.

Its frustrating, and I understand what you are going through. You can do this though. You did it before last year. Put your mind to it. Tell yourself that there is no other way of eating, and if you don't eat this WOE then there are serious health risks associated with weight gain, etc.

You can do this Jim! Let us know if you need any more of our support and we are here for you if you do!

[softnred]

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Welcome back to the wagon Jim


How's Gabby??