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Yep, the time is finally here, after what has seemed like an eternity!!! (it was in fact, one year). We are leaving for the airport at 4 am tomorrow morning to Orlando for our wedding/honeymoon, and I will be running around in a crazy attempt to finish a million last minute loose ends today.
This last year has been an amazing transformation though, not just physically but emotionally. I have learned so much about myself and for the first time, I think, more then wanting to be "skinny", I WANT to be healthy, and that is an amazing feeling!!
This wedding/honeymoon has been a "light at the end of the tunnel" for a lot of my cravings, I would keep telling myself I would eat that after the wedding and that would keep me going. A good way to do it, but I'm really not as excited about "cheating" as I thought I would be. I'm actually looking forward to returning to this WOL newly commited after my honeymoon (but I am going to give myself this respite).
So I started at 262, barely able to recognize myself and in a pretty pathetic state of health. Feet hurt all the time, no energy, little ambition, social phobia, you name it. Even though I'm not at my goal weight, so many areas of my life have vastly improved, why would I ever want to give up on trying to get healthy, it has given me so much? Like they say.. it's not easy, but it is worth it..
I had gotten down to 178 back in February, but then started doing the stupidest things, like restricting my calories lower and lower, until finally I was eating barely 600 calories a day for 2 weeks, and of course you know what happens when we do that for a while, I blew it.I kept trying to get on and off, but I was in such a state of emotional turmoil I just kept doing dumber and dumber things, like trying slim-fast or counting calories, I just found it so hard to get back on atkins. I ended up as high as 194 again... This past month I finally put myself in the "maintenance phase" and found that if I allowed myself some fruit I could stay on much better - and MOST IMPORTANT - I stopped counting calories and went by how I felt. So this past month I've been doing okay and have been losing, but I haven't been weighing myself just going by inches.. I haven't gotten down to as low as I was - but I'm okay with that. I need to stop beating myself up about it.
I really wanted to be thin & skinny for my wedding. I don't know how I'll feel on my wedding day , I am going to try to be as positive as I can be. I will let you know how it goes!!
Just wanted to thank everyone here for all their support & wisdom!! If I hadn't found this site and this sub-forum I know my weight would still be a lot higher then it is and I wouldn't know half as much as I now know. Big hugs to everyone here!!!
I can't wait to return and tell everyone how everything went! In the meantime, if your'e really bored, I'm working on a "trip report" on a disney messageboard I visit, feel free to read my progress so far if you like - kind of like a weding blog.
I will be back May 7th, take care everyone!!
This last year has been an amazing transformation though, not just physically but emotionally. I have learned so much about myself and for the first time, I think, more then wanting to be "skinny", I WANT to be healthy, and that is an amazing feeling!!
This wedding/honeymoon has been a "light at the end of the tunnel" for a lot of my cravings, I would keep telling myself I would eat that after the wedding and that would keep me going. A good way to do it, but I'm really not as excited about "cheating" as I thought I would be. I'm actually looking forward to returning to this WOL newly commited after my honeymoon (but I am going to give myself this respite).
So I started at 262, barely able to recognize myself and in a pretty pathetic state of health. Feet hurt all the time, no energy, little ambition, social phobia, you name it. Even though I'm not at my goal weight, so many areas of my life have vastly improved, why would I ever want to give up on trying to get healthy, it has given me so much? Like they say.. it's not easy, but it is worth it..
I had gotten down to 178 back in February, but then started doing the stupidest things, like restricting my calories lower and lower, until finally I was eating barely 600 calories a day for 2 weeks, and of course you know what happens when we do that for a while, I blew it.I kept trying to get on and off, but I was in such a state of emotional turmoil I just kept doing dumber and dumber things, like trying slim-fast or counting calories, I just found it so hard to get back on atkins. I ended up as high as 194 again... This past month I finally put myself in the "maintenance phase" and found that if I allowed myself some fruit I could stay on much better - and MOST IMPORTANT - I stopped counting calories and went by how I felt. So this past month I've been doing okay and have been losing, but I haven't been weighing myself just going by inches.. I haven't gotten down to as low as I was - but I'm okay with that. I need to stop beating myself up about it.
I really wanted to be thin & skinny for my wedding. I don't know how I'll feel on my wedding day , I am going to try to be as positive as I can be. I will let you know how it goes!!
Just wanted to thank everyone here for all their support & wisdom!! If I hadn't found this site and this sub-forum I know my weight would still be a lot higher then it is and I wouldn't know half as much as I now know. Big hugs to everyone here!!!
I can't wait to return and tell everyone how everything went! In the meantime, if your'e really bored, I'm working on a "trip report" on a disney messageboard I visit, feel free to read my progress so far if you like - kind of like a weding blog.
I will be back May 7th, take care everyone!!
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