I had no idea

[CHUBBRUBBKARA]

Confessions of the Clueless

I haven't let anyone take my picture in years. I happen to have been fortunate that no one has forced it on me or snuck up on me. Today.... I saw pictures of myself for the first time in years. I volunteer at my son's school and take pictures for the yearbook. I am one of two "photographers". For big events we are both there. Well..... I happened to see myself in the backround of his shots taking pictures and I had no idea.

I mean.... I knew I was "fat". I knew I had gotten pretty darn big. Obviously, I've seen myself in the mirror and I know what size clothes I wear but what a shock.

I truly in every fiber of my being had no idea at all that I was that big. I didn't see it. When did this happen? When I look in the mirror I don't see that person.

I want to break down and cry. I thought I felt overwhelmed before. I don't have a scale and I was going to go purchase one this afternoon. After this I think I'll wait a while.

BUT..... Trying to be positive.........

I was a little bit upset looking at all the pictures on this board. I was sad because I thought that I wouldn't have any "before" pictures to share once I lose the weight. At least now I have some.


Sorry for my rambles. Just had to get it off my chest and allow myself a little self pity..... if just for a minute.

Kara

[2big4mysize]

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good thing about that is you don't have fat googles welded onto your face so you will not have any trouble knowing that smaller healtheir body you are greating is really you as you shrink like many of us did.

[Kate113]

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Hi Kara. I hate having my picture taken, too. I also notice that what I see in the mirror is NOT what I see in photos. The photos of me seem much bigger and it's a little discouraging to be hit with that dose of reality. If you look into my signature area, that first face shot of me....I had no idea I was THAT fat! I didn't see it! (Hard to imagine, I know, but I didn't). When I found that pic, I was so embarrassed for myself!

Stick with Atkins and get someone to take your picture and compare them. Besides the scale and the measurements, it's a great way to be able to see your progress.

Good luck to you!

[drosa75]

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I also did not have any idea I was a whale until my sisters wedding photo.. I was wearing a black/white dress and looked like shamu's cousin..


Horiffied!

Most of us can relate and understand exactly how you feel. You are not alone

I am sure you will do fine.. come here for support

[Sd1136]

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I know how you feel!! I refuse to let people take my picture and when I do see one, I am amzed justh ow fat I am, I dont feel this fat. Last Sunday I was at my sons conformation and we had a family shot, here I am wearing a size smaller pants and shirt, and still in those pictures (some is the way the shirt was sitting) I was huge. Like why did I bother to lose weight. I have lost 3o lbs and no one noticed and all.
depressing. But its getting me on doing induction again
sandi

[CHUBBRUBBKARA]

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I'm so glad I'm not alone And yes.... seeing my pictures has been such great incentive to stick to the plan. Here's to skinnier pictures of all of us!

Kara

[BenandHallesMom_1]

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I too HATE pictures. I don't know why, I guess it's confirmation of what I see in the mirror looking back at me. I will say that in one month's time, I feel so much better about myself and know that I'm losing fat an on the track to permanent health! Hang in there. We're all in this together.

[CHUBBRUBBKARA]

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Hugs to all my "sisters" I am so glad I found you all!


Kara

[I lost it]

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Motivation comes in many forms, Sounds like those pictures are a great jumping off point for you.Believe me all of us have had something or someone to shock us into action. I know you will make this work for you.

[freckles]

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Hugs!!! I have had the same moment....

My husband took pictures of me in my Easter dress and I kept saying the pics were from a bad angle and made him take more..... after 10 angles, I realized it wasn't a bad angle, it was a truthful angle...

[Katlam]

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Kara I have to say your post in particular hit me. I was in the same position. I knew I was heavy, I knew that I was in danger of my weight being a major health issue. I avoided the camera. Then my friends were here at my house for a Christmas party. I was hot, running to make sure everyone had food and there were plenty of drinks available. Tending to my friends and all our kids. Someone got all us moms together for a photo I was grinning and just enjoying it all. Well after the party I was given a copy of that photo and I was TOTALLY SHOCKED. I think the British term GOBSMACKED fits. I had NO IDEA who that person in the giant red sweater with the bright red face was but it couldn't be me.

Started Atkins just over a month later. Now the person I see in the mirror is the person who I thought I was back 2 years ago. I'm still overweight and I still know it, BUT...now I am healthier, I can walk for hours and hours without being exhausted. Still not perfect, but then, who is anyway?

Your turn in the skinnier zone is coming Kara. You're taking small steps in that direction. Keep walking!

Kathy

[pladd04]

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Kara, I think everyone here knows right where your coming from or they wouldn't be here. And I am also one of those people. I too have lost about 30 lbs. so far and I notice some of my clothes fit much better but I still look beastly when it comes to pictures. We are going this weekend to get our pictures taken for the first time together and I am dreading it so bad. I want to look good in it and I know its not going to happen at least not yet. And no one has notice my weight loss and that drives me crazy.
Now I'm starting to ramble on...Sorry

[Analog6]

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I've lost 65 bs and a recent 'candid' picture is just HORRIBLE! I have 2 chins in it and I look like a beached whale! So it really does take a while, but it will be worth it when you get closer to goal and really start to SEE the results.

[kkat55]

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I know how you feel!!

When I put my make-up on in the morning I feel like I'm the same person as I was in my 20's...but when I see pictures of me I just want to die!! I've gained so much weight. And then I do feel overwhelmed.

But, we can never give up. We can do this and we will be at a better place if we just keep focused and our goal ahead of us.

[MotherOfGizmo]

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Yep, me too. I can so see myself in your post! Now I am usually the photographer so that I don't have to worry about being in the pics, the ones that I do end up in, I destroy when ever possible.