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HELLO all ..... I'm new to this group Didn't want to just invite myself along hehehe. I have always been that way. Its nice to know there are others whos are going for 100+. In total I had 115 to lose now I have 106. 
wow seeing that in print makes it look much better. Thats a big change in one week.
I have tried these liquid diet nutritional meal replacement diets similar the OPTIFAST only it tasted a LOT better. I was supposed to do an 8oz shake every 2 hours but to me it wasn't filling enough so every 2 hours I was drinking 160z shakes, +1 gallon of water more. 8oz of lean meat and 2 cups of veggies. I lost a lot on it but gained it all back and had just quit smoking right before so got all the smoking weight on top of it when I gained back. I have back issues so it takes me forever to move around and on top of that was taking depo-prevera shots to quell the TOM pains. Godsend, that drug is. Anyway that caused me to crave salty carbs which made me gain more. Before all of this roughly about 4 years ago I was on wellbutrin, depakote, and xanax all of which contribute to weight gain quit the meds and just 5 months ago I had stopped taking the lexapro and lamictal I was on recently.
Needless to say over the years medicines and quitting smoking have been the major culprit for my weight gain. I would say a total of 70lbs can be attributed to it. The rest was just me feeding the depression that ensued. I always dreaded gettin over 160lbs. then I dreaded gettin to 180lbs and so on. then one day I was walking past a window i front of where I work and it was one of those large office building panes of glass that distort everything. I walked past it and looked at the right time and saw a thin me and started crying and then I moved and there was reality.
Sad. Not because I was upset or depressed but because I knew I was a cmpletely different person then, inside and out. I HATE this person I have become. I am not only grossly obese, I feel disgusting, I am terribly nasty to people because they look at me but I can't take it like it might be because I am pretty or because they want to alk to me. I always assume its because I am fat, because I always have a sour look on my face because I am, because I am frumpy and know it.
I used to be so outgoing and very friendly, fun, energetic ready to go out and hang out, dressed well, felt good, didn't stress about walking into a store because I might not be able ot find something. Now its like trying to find a needle in a haystack and now I know why my mother always dressed so badly. She couldnt find anything nice in her size.
I hate that I had to go through to truly see it but I am better for it. So are the rest of us. Now we can walk with more confidence, hold our heads up high, smile and have wisdom enough to know that those chicas that treat people like crap because they are heavy will one day be in our shoes and go though the gaunlet as well and learn what they should have known/been taught all along. To each his own and now having my own I expect everyone else to work for theirs as well. RESPECT.
Anyway this is the real me. I know I will be back to who I was and hopefully a few luggage bags shy by then.
wow seeing that in print makes it look much better. Thats a big change in one week. I have tried these liquid diet nutritional meal replacement diets similar the OPTIFAST only it tasted a LOT better. I was supposed to do an 8oz shake every 2 hours but to me it wasn't filling enough so every 2 hours I was drinking 160z shakes, +1 gallon of water more. 8oz of lean meat and 2 cups of veggies. I lost a lot on it but gained it all back and had just quit smoking right before so got all the smoking weight on top of it when I gained back. I have back issues so it takes me forever to move around and on top of that was taking depo-prevera shots to quell the TOM pains. Godsend, that drug is. Anyway that caused me to crave salty carbs which made me gain more. Before all of this roughly about 4 years ago I was on wellbutrin, depakote, and xanax all of which contribute to weight gain quit the meds and just 5 months ago I had stopped taking the lexapro and lamictal I was on recently.
Needless to say over the years medicines and quitting smoking have been the major culprit for my weight gain. I would say a total of 70lbs can be attributed to it. The rest was just me feeding the depression that ensued. I always dreaded gettin over 160lbs. then I dreaded gettin to 180lbs and so on. then one day I was walking past a window i front of where I work and it was one of those large office building panes of glass that distort everything. I walked past it and looked at the right time and saw a thin me and started crying and then I moved and there was reality.
Sad. Not because I was upset or depressed but because I knew I was a cmpletely different person then, inside and out. I HATE this person I have become. I am not only grossly obese, I feel disgusting, I am terribly nasty to people because they look at me but I can't take it like it might be because I am pretty or because they want to alk to me. I always assume its because I am fat, because I always have a sour look on my face because I am, because I am frumpy and know it.
I used to be so outgoing and very friendly, fun, energetic ready to go out and hang out, dressed well, felt good, didn't stress about walking into a store because I might not be able ot find something. Now its like trying to find a needle in a haystack and now I know why my mother always dressed so badly. She couldnt find anything nice in her size.
I hate that I had to go through to truly see it but I am better for it. So are the rest of us. Now we can walk with more confidence, hold our heads up high, smile and have wisdom enough to know that those chicas that treat people like crap because they are heavy will one day be in our shoes and go though the gaunlet as well and learn what they should have known/been taught all along. To each his own and now having my own I expect everyone else to work for theirs as well. RESPECT.
Anyway this is the real me. I know I will be back to who I was and hopefully a few luggage bags shy by then.
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