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Did a good thing this past week
I sucked it up and joined a gym; at my weight, that is a pretty phenomenal thing for me to do. I never ever really thought that I would do that again because, of course, we all hate working out with our larger, imperfect bodies in a gym full of Hardbodies, perfect princesses, jocks and buff "Arnold" look-a-likes. That was my biggest fear initially but for me, I am so desperate and so focused on losing this weight I decided that no matter what, I would do whatever it takes to lose this weight this year, no matter who is looking at me. 
I am determined. I AM going to do this!
Anyway, I show up all nervous and scared but when I looked around, I was less nervous. I met one of the trainers and had a evaluation; they took my height, weight, asked me tons of health questions, asked me what I wanted to accomplish, about my diet and on and on. Which impressed me because I can tell you gyms that just ask you to sign over your checking account and give you a gym card, no questions asked. She showed me around the gym and told me some things and I was pleased. It is a small gym and not a huge "Bally-type" enviroment. The other thing that I noticed is that the people who come there and were there, were not the "beautiful people". LOL! They were the average-joes, moms after babies, and just plain people who are trying to lose weight. The people were actually normal and it was not hard seeing myself working out there. I signed up on the spot. Then the real panic set in: am I really gonna do this? Will I be able to make myself, rain or shine, hot or cold, workout?
Well, so far, so good. I am a big procrastinator and one woman at the gym suggested that I keep my workout clothes in the car and come straight from work and to NOT go home or I would talk myself out of my workout. How right she is. I know that if I go home even for a minute and sit down, forget it; I will not go. I have been going everyday for the past 4 days and while I don't and may never love working out, I do it because it is necessary and it will help me get the results I want faster. I know it has more benefits than these but for right now, these are enough for me. I love my home videos, too, but I need to get out of my house, for one, and I needed a little more that home videos can't give (like weights and strength training machines). My goals is for us to start TTC'ing by next Spring and this will help make it that more possible and me more healthy when the time comes to try concieving.
I am glad that I joined despite my reservations and that I did not let my fear of people looking at my huge body stop me because I mean, really, I don't plan on staying huge for long!And who knows? Someone may actually be looking at me and see me losing weight and maybe it might encourage them. If any of you have an opportunity to join your local gym, please do and not let the fear of people looking at you/your size, whatever stop you. If you can, try a small gym and not the huge, fancy ones---you may feel way more comfortable there. And it will really motivate you to lose weight; I know it did me because after failing on Atkins so many times and especially this last time, this is just what I needed to jumpstart my plan. Today, was a good test to me that it is really working because even on this day, my birthday, I still got up and worked out at the gym---and I didn't have to work today but still went on my own with no procrastination!
I am determined. I AM going to do this!Anyway, I show up all nervous and scared but when I looked around, I was less nervous. I met one of the trainers and had a evaluation; they took my height, weight, asked me tons of health questions, asked me what I wanted to accomplish, about my diet and on and on. Which impressed me because I can tell you gyms that just ask you to sign over your checking account and give you a gym card, no questions asked. She showed me around the gym and told me some things and I was pleased. It is a small gym and not a huge "Bally-type" enviroment. The other thing that I noticed is that the people who come there and were there, were not the "beautiful people". LOL! They were the average-joes, moms after babies, and just plain people who are trying to lose weight. The people were actually normal and it was not hard seeing myself working out there. I signed up on the spot. Then the real panic set in: am I really gonna do this? Will I be able to make myself, rain or shine, hot or cold, workout?
Well, so far, so good. I am a big procrastinator and one woman at the gym suggested that I keep my workout clothes in the car and come straight from work and to NOT go home or I would talk myself out of my workout. How right she is. I know that if I go home even for a minute and sit down, forget it; I will not go. I have been going everyday for the past 4 days and while I don't and may never love working out, I do it because it is necessary and it will help me get the results I want faster. I know it has more benefits than these but for right now, these are enough for me. I love my home videos, too, but I need to get out of my house, for one, and I needed a little more that home videos can't give (like weights and strength training machines). My goals is for us to start TTC'ing by next Spring and this will help make it that more possible and me more healthy when the time comes to try concieving.
I am glad that I joined despite my reservations and that I did not let my fear of people looking at my huge body stop me because I mean, really, I don't plan on staying huge for long!And who knows? Someone may actually be looking at me and see me losing weight and maybe it might encourage them. If any of you have an opportunity to join your local gym, please do and not let the fear of people looking at you/your size, whatever stop you. If you can, try a small gym and not the huge, fancy ones---you may feel way more comfortable there. And it will really motivate you to lose weight; I know it did me because after failing on Atkins so many times and especially this last time, this is just what I needed to jumpstart my plan. Today, was a good test to me that it is really working because even on this day, my birthday, I still got up and worked out at the gym---and I didn't have to work today but still went on my own with no procrastination!
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