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Dragged behind the wagon for awhile, have now climbed back in
Well, I'm back and I figured out what I was doing that got me so far off track. I made it down to 223 lbs for a little bit. but this past couple months has been bizzare and rough to say the least.
I hit rock bottom this weekend after I had just stopped into work to talk to a couple people, and then chanced to check my email while i was there. Bad move, I discovered I didn't get the promotion I have worked my *** off for this past 4 months. And when I asked my manager about it, he wasn't prepared and didn't have any of the feedback ready yet except that I had messed up the role-playing section of the interview somehow. I completely cracked and couldn't hold back the tears, so I just left. It was a good thing I wasn't having to be working that day as I just was completely non-functinal. I had to sit in the bathroom awhile to regain my composure so I'd be able to drive home I was so upset. I spent the rest of the weekend trying to de-stress as this was really devastating and has really hit a blow to my company loyalty. I called in sick today as the cold I've been fighting for a week has taken a worse turn from this stress and I just couldn't go back in today and try to deal with all that yet.
So i'm going to use this bad energy and funnel it back into my motivation to lose the rest of the weight I need to lose and turn it into something good. I discovered that a big part of why I slowly fell off is that I'd run out of Brita water filters and so couldn't really drink the tap water at home, and couldn't keep spending money at 7-11 to buy drinks. I knew I needed to replace the filter but just never got around to it. that was dumb. Even the filtered water at work tastes like crap so I couldn't pack in as much of it as I needed.
Going from the lack of water, I'd ended up somehow eating less salads too. and while I wasn't really eating anything really bad for me, things were starting to creep in like a bun now and then at a family BBQ. And then came the bloating. so i've been bouncing around between 223 and 230 during all this time. At least it's given me quite a good idea of what I can and can't eat that causes me to bloat, and has shown me that it's really not too hard to keep my weiight stable at any particular level. that is actually a relief since I'm more or less halfway to my goal and I have bit more peace of mind that i'll be able to maintain that weight goal forever once I get there.
At least one good thing I've done while being dragged behind the wagon by my fingernails is to start a Fitness, Health & Wellness initiative in my workplace. I've launched a number of sports groups and they are going well. I'm the captain of the Stair-climbing team (which I've set-up in the form of a challenge to get people moving) and the Martial Arts Team. I'm also heading up the weightloss support group which is good. Now I have accountability present at work all the time which is going to be a big help.
So now I've made my way back to this board, and have started logging my food on fitday again. Without that I just didn't and couldn't really keep track of what I was eating very well. I'm glad that my drag behind the wagon hasn't set me back really except for several pounds of bloatedness and it's just my motivation, record keeping and attention to detail that needs a kick in the pants here. As soon as I can breathe without coughing I'm heading back to the gym as well since I've had to give that a rest while being sick :-(
Thank god for this board being here so we all have somewhere to go when we need a kick in the pants to keep at it!
I hit rock bottom this weekend after I had just stopped into work to talk to a couple people, and then chanced to check my email while i was there. Bad move, I discovered I didn't get the promotion I have worked my *** off for this past 4 months. And when I asked my manager about it, he wasn't prepared and didn't have any of the feedback ready yet except that I had messed up the role-playing section of the interview somehow. I completely cracked and couldn't hold back the tears, so I just left. It was a good thing I wasn't having to be working that day as I just was completely non-functinal. I had to sit in the bathroom awhile to regain my composure so I'd be able to drive home I was so upset. I spent the rest of the weekend trying to de-stress as this was really devastating and has really hit a blow to my company loyalty. I called in sick today as the cold I've been fighting for a week has taken a worse turn from this stress and I just couldn't go back in today and try to deal with all that yet.
So i'm going to use this bad energy and funnel it back into my motivation to lose the rest of the weight I need to lose and turn it into something good. I discovered that a big part of why I slowly fell off is that I'd run out of Brita water filters and so couldn't really drink the tap water at home, and couldn't keep spending money at 7-11 to buy drinks. I knew I needed to replace the filter but just never got around to it. that was dumb. Even the filtered water at work tastes like crap so I couldn't pack in as much of it as I needed.
Going from the lack of water, I'd ended up somehow eating less salads too. and while I wasn't really eating anything really bad for me, things were starting to creep in like a bun now and then at a family BBQ. And then came the bloating. so i've been bouncing around between 223 and 230 during all this time. At least it's given me quite a good idea of what I can and can't eat that causes me to bloat, and has shown me that it's really not too hard to keep my weiight stable at any particular level. that is actually a relief since I'm more or less halfway to my goal and I have bit more peace of mind that i'll be able to maintain that weight goal forever once I get there.
At least one good thing I've done while being dragged behind the wagon by my fingernails is to start a Fitness, Health & Wellness initiative in my workplace. I've launched a number of sports groups and they are going well. I'm the captain of the Stair-climbing team (which I've set-up in the form of a challenge to get people moving) and the Martial Arts Team. I'm also heading up the weightloss support group which is good. Now I have accountability present at work all the time which is going to be a big help.
So now I've made my way back to this board, and have started logging my food on fitday again. Without that I just didn't and couldn't really keep track of what I was eating very well. I'm glad that my drag behind the wagon hasn't set me back really except for several pounds of bloatedness and it's just my motivation, record keeping and attention to detail that needs a kick in the pants here. As soon as I can breathe without coughing I'm heading back to the gym as well since I've had to give that a rest while being sick :-(
Thank god for this board being here so we all have somewhere to go when we need a kick in the pants to keep at it!
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