Then I wouldn't be a member here. LOL! All my good intentions of re-starting Atkins, went down the toilet last week.
I tried but I guess I didn't try hard enough. I gave in to my addictions with the most surprising ease and never looked back. Several things contributed to it: not being prepared, cooking every meal (something I don't enjoy right now), too tired after working all day with food to cook food, and plain ol' fashioned boredom. Plus I think not posting on the boards or my journal made it hard for me to stay motivated, as well. I am making a vow to post everyday.
So it is back to the drawing board for me. But this time, I have a couple more tangible motivations to keep on. My other reasons (to have a baby and be healthier) are still there but this one is more "in my face" at the moment. My husband and I have been trying for the past 7 yrs, to get a new green card so we can visit family in Morocco. No luck. Interview after interview, paperwork after paperwork, no dice. This week, they called us for another interview and granted the green card! I was sooooo excited! BUT now, that means we can go home and visit family and I do NOT want to go back there as fat as I was before. No way. It will take us a while to get some money together to go (because this time, we want to go all around Morocco and have fun), so NOW is the ideal time for me to get my act together. I know that if I were to fly now, I would NOT be able to fit into a seat on an airplane. I know that for a fact. I would be so embarrassed to have to pay for an extra seat to fit my girth.
Anyways, I am re-starting again and trying to learn from my previous mistakes so that I won't be coming in here next week, saying I screwed up again. I feel different this time though; like I can truly get back on and do this thing right. I hope that I am right. I just have to get that "perfectionism" on Atkins out of my head. I know that we all slip and all that and I will never be perfect on it like some people here are---that's just something I know about myself. Those who have been on for a year or whatever who have never cheated are lucky but I am not one of those people and probably never will be. I am going to take this one day at a time again and hang on to that. I am going to actually try to cook some food today for meals next week, so I won't be tempted to eat junk and slip. Work is my biggest challenge and if I can make it thru my shift there, I am home free. Wish me luck (again, sorry!)!
I tried but I guess I didn't try hard enough. I gave in to my addictions with the most surprising ease and never looked back. Several things contributed to it: not being prepared, cooking every meal (something I don't enjoy right now), too tired after working all day with food to cook food, and plain ol' fashioned boredom. Plus I think not posting on the boards or my journal made it hard for me to stay motivated, as well. I am making a vow to post everyday.So it is back to the drawing board for me. But this time, I have a couple more tangible motivations to keep on. My other reasons (to have a baby and be healthier) are still there but this one is more "in my face" at the moment. My husband and I have been trying for the past 7 yrs, to get a new green card so we can visit family in Morocco. No luck. Interview after interview, paperwork after paperwork, no dice. This week, they called us for another interview and granted the green card! I was sooooo excited! BUT now, that means we can go home and visit family and I do NOT want to go back there as fat as I was before. No way. It will take us a while to get some money together to go (because this time, we want to go all around Morocco and have fun), so NOW is the ideal time for me to get my act together. I know that if I were to fly now, I would NOT be able to fit into a seat on an airplane. I know that for a fact. I would be so embarrassed to have to pay for an extra seat to fit my girth.
Anyways, I am re-starting again and trying to learn from my previous mistakes so that I won't be coming in here next week, saying I screwed up again. I feel different this time though; like I can truly get back on and do this thing right. I hope that I am right. I just have to get that "perfectionism" on Atkins out of my head. I know that we all slip and all that and I will never be perfect on it like some people here are---that's just something I know about myself. Those who have been on for a year or whatever who have never cheated are lucky but I am not one of those people and probably never will be. I am going to take this one day at a time again and hang on to that. I am going to actually try to cook some food today for meals next week, so I won't be tempted to eat junk and slip. Work is my biggest challenge and if I can make it thru my shift there, I am home free. Wish me luck (again, sorry!)!




You will do great and we will be here for you!

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