I have been attending a really great program for compulsive eaters on Saturdays for the past couple of months. It's not OA, and it doesn't have anything to do with judging your WOE.
I have a LONG LONG way to go on the program. I am having successes, though. 3 months ago I could barely WALK. I even had thought about planning my funeral. Yesterday I did laps in a pool for an HOUR. So things are changing and so am I.
I have been BIG (and I mean BIG!) my whole life. I have had much success however on the Atkins diet, losing 150-180 lbs twice. Needless I know I can do the work on this WOE. But I get freaked out and stall each time right around 260 lbs.
The breakthrough that I had was the realization that in my mind I have somehow seen myself as not WORTHY of being thinner and healthy, and that I have actually been AFRAID in some ways of losing the weight all the way.
It reallyfeel as if the great "wegiht" has been lisfted off of me, and I knoe I have to look ahead and embrace the person I will be instead of fearing it . SOmehow in the past the joy of the emerging Sharron has turned into a fearful thing.
This may sound completely crazy to anyone who has 10-15 lbs. to lose, but can anyone else relate to this?
I really feel that since I have pinpointed this issue that it will not occur again.Anyway, I just wanted to share a portion of this journey with all of you, maybe because I feel like you don't know me very well. I am really an outgoing person, but I just don't post that much!
I have a LONG LONG way to go on the program. I am having successes, though. 3 months ago I could barely WALK. I even had thought about planning my funeral. Yesterday I did laps in a pool for an HOUR. So things are changing and so am I.
I have been BIG (and I mean BIG!) my whole life. I have had much success however on the Atkins diet, losing 150-180 lbs twice. Needless I know I can do the work on this WOE. But I get freaked out and stall each time right around 260 lbs.
The breakthrough that I had was the realization that in my mind I have somehow seen myself as not WORTHY of being thinner and healthy, and that I have actually been AFRAID in some ways of losing the weight all the way.
It reallyfeel as if the great "wegiht" has been lisfted off of me, and I knoe I have to look ahead and embrace the person I will be instead of fearing it . SOmehow in the past the joy of the emerging Sharron has turned into a fearful thing.
This may sound completely crazy to anyone who has 10-15 lbs. to lose, but can anyone else relate to this?
I really feel that since I have pinpointed this issue that it will not occur again.Anyway, I just wanted to share a portion of this journey with all of you, maybe because I feel like you don't know me very well. I am really an outgoing person, but I just don't post that much!







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