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I started Atkins back in the middle of January and, despite cheating almost every weekend, managed to lose 24 pounds by the end of march. A friend of mine showed a male co worker a picture of me when I was about 80 pounds lighter. He made some comment like "Oh yeah, you woulda been sexually harassed for sure, look at that, we'd never leave you alone" or something along those lines. I don't know what the **** happened in my head, but I stopped and bought a cake on my way home. I ate it. I continued to eat carby junky gross foods for the next 4 months. Here I am now 2 pounds heavier than when I started in January. I knew from the start that I was sabatoging myself. I knew from the start that it was because I was afraid of the attention that could come from being attractive. I want to get back on track, but I don't know how to not fall into this trap again, how to not be afraid of success. I am starting today, but honestly I don't feel very motivated. I've been putting it off until I could figure out how to deal with the sabatoge issue, but I haven't gotten anywhere with it, and need to get started now before I gain any more weight. So anyhow, I'm restarting today. On a side note, is there anyone here who gained back and needed a bigger size than the last time they were that weight? Sorry for the long post!
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Christie, 26/f
5'8"
255/248/150
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Christie, welcome back and welcome to STAC ((((Christie))))Originally posted by christie313
No need to be sorry for a lengthy post (and this was surely not long). I'd say there are many people who have been there and have started a size or more larger than where they've been before. (and, FWIW, I lost 20 pounds on low fat when I was a perfecty healthy 20 year old, and got myself an eating disorder and gained more like 50 afterwards...)
First, start re-reading DANDR. Read and post regularly on this board - we're all right here to help you through the bad times and praise you for your achievements. You can do this!
yemenitegreen36/f/5'9" - SW: 216 - GW: 150
STAC Weigh-In every Thursday
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on hiatus until Feb. 28th
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Welcome back! You will have time to deal with those issues, the important thing is you are getting back on track! Congrats!Comment
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Hi Christy
I feel for you! When I did Atkins the first time, I lost 56 pounds. I let life get the better of me and went back to poor eating habits. I gained all 56 pounds back plus about 25 more. It sucks, but I did this to myself.
What I would suggest is pre-plan every meal for the following day. I plan my breakfast, mid-morning snack, lunch, mid-afternoon snack and dinner. This way, I have something to eat when I'm hungry and won't go for the carby foods. It is hard to give up those things we love. So, another thing I try to remember are the feelings I have when I eat something bad for my body: first and always is GUILT - I hate this feeling and like to avoid it at all costs. I then think of my son and wonder what habits he is learning from me, to binge on a pint of icecream? That is not what I want from him.
Get the ball rolling and start focusing on the positives. My fav positives are this: even though it has taken me longer this time around, I have lost 13 pounds, my skin and nails look great from all of this water, I have more energy to play with my son, I have more energy to stay up later for quality time with my man, etc.
You can do this!!! We are all here for you!!
F, 28
5'8"
Re-Start Date: January 25, 2009
SW:300
CW:295
GW: 180Comment
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I lost weight on Atkins and with depression and lack of control put much more weight on than I started with. I agree, read the book and get to the grocery store! As far as the self sabotage goes, you'll have to work through those emotions and events that led you to this place. I suggest that you seek the help from a professional counselor if it gets too much for you. But you can do it! We are all here to support each other so like someone else said- post often!
Kerry
183 lbs.
5'2" female
29 yrs. old
"When nothing is sure, everything is possible..."Comment
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Welcome Christie!
I only started induction about 9 days ago and have lost 8lbs, even when its TOM. I read everything I possibly could about Atkins and googled it many many times to see what it was all about. I finally said to myself that I wanted and Needed to do this, once and for all. It took my a couple tries to actually stick with it though. I could only make it 1, maybe 2 days and then I would give up and cheat, when I did that I would think about how I felt when I WAS on Atkins, which would push me to once again, get back on the wagon.
It does take time for adjust, and along will come the headaches and so on, but if you know that it will make you happier to be skinny and healthy, then that should push you forward. Everyone needs advice and support, thats what ADBB is for. I cannot express enough how much ADBB has helped me. When you feel like all you want to do is eat a loaf of bread, you come here. Everyone here is VERY supportive and can steer you through. We're all here for ya.....Good Luck, You can do this!
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Thanks, everyone. I will definately be rereading DANDR and hitting the grocery asap. I know that once I get over this killer headache and general bla that comes with the first few days, I will feel awesome. I'm so looking forward to that. One more question. As far as excercise goes, did anyone start right away on day one? Would it be better to wait until after induction flu passes? I want to do this right this time. I feel really weak and yucky, but I don't want to make excuses and put it off. Any advice would be great.Christie, 26/f
5'8"
255/248/150
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Christie,
if you feal nauseated, dizzy, with induction flu, wait until you feel better and have some energy, Give your body a break to adjust to the new life. And then start going, no excuses
Exercise is good for us.
yemenitegreen36/f/5'9" - SW: 216 - GW: 150
STAC Weigh-In every Thursday
- modified OWL 25 g carbs -
on hiatus until Feb. 28th
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Welcome to STAC Chris!
We totally understand your situation b/c it has all happen to us one time or another....Lean on us for support and try not to let your emotions cause you to eat.
WE are always here to help....Induction Started: 7/18/05
229/*215*/160
Mini Goal: 210 by 8-22-05
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Hi Chirs,
Boy have I been there, letting myself get triggered by some deep down fear, then sabotaging myself with food and sweets. Sigh... All I can tell you is that yes, you will likely feel that panic again, the fear of being attractive, ie, vulnerable. It's time to develop a coping strategy for the next time you feel that fear. Try journaling, or go drink a diet soda or something, but be aware of what is triggering you so that you can work through it.
We're all here for you as we all work through these weight issues, and the emotional issues and fears that underly them.
hugs!!HW: 217, lost 57 lbs. in 2003/04
Restarted on 8/18/08
SW:197 CW: 190 GW: 160
I promised myself I'd never see 200 on the scale again!
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Thank you all so much for your words of support. I'm really excited about this. In all actuality I don't guess I followed the plan very well in the beginning, so I'm really going to try to stick with it this time. I know this is what works for me. Anyway, thanks for all of your help!!!Christie, 26/f
5'8"
255/248/150
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