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Ok, Ok, I cheated BAD! I went from being an avid Atkineer to eating like a 12 year old at a sleep-over. Except that that was nearly 9 weeks ago! I could have only cheated that one day & recouped the next...but I didn't.
I cheated to the Nth power too it seemed. I ate foods I never EVER ate before in my life - like that Apple Turnover thingy @ McDonalds! I'm 39 yrs old too. No it didn't taste good, but yes I ate it all. Even after overeating from TWO large orders of fries, a burger & a large Coke.
In just over 2 months time I have packed on 13 pounds, have taken on the lumpest of shapes, my body feels the weakest it ever has & I am ashamed of myself. I also tallied up the cancelled checks from Chinese take-out over these past 2 months - the checks totalled $402!!!! There is only me and my hubby - I ate $201 worth of Chinese food myself! EGADS!! I don't dare tally the countless lunches & dinners out eating Mexican. We eat Mexican out 3-4 times a week for either lunch or dinner or both! I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have eaten McDonalds, Popeyes, Chick-Fil-A, etc during these last 2 months. The monetary input lately in fast foods/takeout/delivery has only gained dividends in my hips, bum & stomach!
I can barely take a deep breath these days without having to lean forward a bit & arch out just so my diaphragm can expand enough to get in a deep breath!
My bra & undies leave a deep impression in my skin for HOURS after I take them off. Like a chalk outline from a murder crime scene!
Having said that - that did nothing to stop my recent food crime spree. What did finally get my attention was heartburn. GADZOOKS! That was the most painful, scary, uncomfortable experience I have ever had.
After a HUGE dinner of Domino's pizza & cinnamon sticks - I was overcome with severe pain in my lower chest, couldn't get a decent breath, wanted to cry from the pain but the pain squelched that idea, felt my intestines spasming, I knew it was not a heart attack but I gotta tell ya - this is as close as anyone should ever get to having a heart attack. After some time (digestion) I began to feel "better" but thru the night my intestines made odd internal noises & painful spasms that would jolt me into the fetal position. Did I learn my lesson?? NOoOOooooooOOO! I figured that was a fluke.
Next day, ate lunch with friends at Mexican restaurant & we ordered Chinese takeout for dinner. Got heartburn AGAIN!! This time it hurt unmeasurably more than the night prior & YES that got my attention! I can't go thru that again - especially something I did to self-induce that whole ordeal.
I am happily relieved to be back on Induction. I'm no longer carrying around the burdeon of knowing I "should" be eating better, not carrying around the "guilt" of eating poorly and knowing that my self-esteem was slowly eroding the longer I allowed myself (read: justified) to eat like a 6th grader.
The thing is - I liked Atkins too. I took to it so well & never felt deprived, hungry, etc. I enjoyed cooking with my husband & reaping the rewards of feeling better & looking better too I might add! I walked around like I knew I belonged there & felt confident. But my "what the heck - lets cheat" has been a waste of time, money & has left me feeling lousy.
I don't wish heartburn on anyone - but that was the day-glo wake up call I needed & in hindsight - it was the best thing for me!
I can sympathsize with everyone who has ended up on the Second Time Around Club - it's a kick in the esteem but it's not the end all. I hate that I cheated - but that's water under the bridge - no sense in knocking myself over the head about it now.
I refuse to spend another day dragging around my bad habits like anvils. It's ridiculous how I let bad foods take over my life but the good news is those bad foods retaliated with the heartburn. I simply refuse to go another day in my life with my clothes leaving impressions into my skin, I refuse to not be able to take a deep breath without having to shift around, etc.
But mostly I am tired of being the person who is always "trying to lose those last few pounds" enough already! GEEZ! I spent nearly the first 40 years of my life being my own worst enemy - I'l be damned if I allow myself to do that for the next 40 years (or longer hopefully).
So short story long...that's my dirty laundry. I'm back on Induction - doing fine and hope to have help from yall should I need it and hopefully be of help to someone else!
Jane
I cheated to the Nth power too it seemed. I ate foods I never EVER ate before in my life - like that Apple Turnover thingy @ McDonalds! I'm 39 yrs old too. No it didn't taste good, but yes I ate it all. Even after overeating from TWO large orders of fries, a burger & a large Coke.
In just over 2 months time I have packed on 13 pounds, have taken on the lumpest of shapes, my body feels the weakest it ever has & I am ashamed of myself. I also tallied up the cancelled checks from Chinese take-out over these past 2 months - the checks totalled $402!!!! There is only me and my hubby - I ate $201 worth of Chinese food myself! EGADS!! I don't dare tally the countless lunches & dinners out eating Mexican. We eat Mexican out 3-4 times a week for either lunch or dinner or both! I cannot begin to tell you how many times I have eaten McDonalds, Popeyes, Chick-Fil-A, etc during these last 2 months. The monetary input lately in fast foods/takeout/delivery has only gained dividends in my hips, bum & stomach!
I can barely take a deep breath these days without having to lean forward a bit & arch out just so my diaphragm can expand enough to get in a deep breath!
My bra & undies leave a deep impression in my skin for HOURS after I take them off. Like a chalk outline from a murder crime scene!
Having said that - that did nothing to stop my recent food crime spree. What did finally get my attention was heartburn. GADZOOKS! That was the most painful, scary, uncomfortable experience I have ever had.
After a HUGE dinner of Domino's pizza & cinnamon sticks - I was overcome with severe pain in my lower chest, couldn't get a decent breath, wanted to cry from the pain but the pain squelched that idea, felt my intestines spasming, I knew it was not a heart attack but I gotta tell ya - this is as close as anyone should ever get to having a heart attack. After some time (digestion) I began to feel "better" but thru the night my intestines made odd internal noises & painful spasms that would jolt me into the fetal position. Did I learn my lesson?? NOoOOooooooOOO! I figured that was a fluke.
Next day, ate lunch with friends at Mexican restaurant & we ordered Chinese takeout for dinner. Got heartburn AGAIN!! This time it hurt unmeasurably more than the night prior & YES that got my attention! I can't go thru that again - especially something I did to self-induce that whole ordeal.
I am happily relieved to be back on Induction. I'm no longer carrying around the burdeon of knowing I "should" be eating better, not carrying around the "guilt" of eating poorly and knowing that my self-esteem was slowly eroding the longer I allowed myself (read: justified) to eat like a 6th grader.
The thing is - I liked Atkins too. I took to it so well & never felt deprived, hungry, etc. I enjoyed cooking with my husband & reaping the rewards of feeling better & looking better too I might add! I walked around like I knew I belonged there & felt confident. But my "what the heck - lets cheat" has been a waste of time, money & has left me feeling lousy.
I don't wish heartburn on anyone - but that was the day-glo wake up call I needed & in hindsight - it was the best thing for me!
I can sympathsize with everyone who has ended up on the Second Time Around Club - it's a kick in the esteem but it's not the end all. I hate that I cheated - but that's water under the bridge - no sense in knocking myself over the head about it now.
I refuse to spend another day dragging around my bad habits like anvils. It's ridiculous how I let bad foods take over my life but the good news is those bad foods retaliated with the heartburn. I simply refuse to go another day in my life with my clothes leaving impressions into my skin, I refuse to not be able to take a deep breath without having to shift around, etc.
But mostly I am tired of being the person who is always "trying to lose those last few pounds" enough already! GEEZ! I spent nearly the first 40 years of my life being my own worst enemy - I'l be damned if I allow myself to do that for the next 40 years (or longer hopefully).
So short story long...that's my dirty laundry. I'm back on Induction - doing fine and hope to have help from yall should I need it and hopefully be of help to someone else!
Jane
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Started 08/29/05
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