Sweets don't lessen the hurt...time, patience, love and commitment do!

[AtkinsLegit]

So, I'm starting again...because not only do I know this way of eating works, but I know the last time I did it and really committed I felt healthy and happy. Along with starting this way of life I am also starting a new excercise regimen. I am planning to train for a triathlon. Growing up I was really athletic swimming every summer and playing soccer, basketball, softball and tennis during the rest of the year. After 10th grade and an extreme period of depression I fell off the wagon and stopped playing sports and became a pretty bad compulsive overeater. Since then I have adopted a lot of unhealthy eating habits--either extremely restrictive or extremely indulgent. Today, I'm not at my heaviest, but still overweight and would love to return to the days of running with ease and not feeling trapped within my own body. I'm training for a triathlon because I have come to realize that becoming healthier shouldn't be about losing weight, but rather gaining a better appreciation for my body and its capabilities--I want to feel what its like to push my body to the limits and get a surge of endorphin highs...not sugar highs. Life should be lived in the present and not through what ifs and the future...I'm sick of saying if I was thin I would do this and that and even more sick of treating myself like **** because I feel so uncomfortable in my own skin. There are people who are dealt much worse battles in life to conquer--many issues out of their control and they still somehow find a reason to go on-push harder and overcome...I can't let my weight be the reason anymore...enough is enough I'm 20 years old I have the rest of my life ahead of me...I want to be healthy and I don't want to hide anymore--I'm sick of being scared of feeling pretty and allowing myself to be okay with my body--too many times I have lost weight only to quickly pile on the pounds because I didn't like the attention--there was nowhere for me to hide anymore--feeling vulnerable seemed too scary. But when I compare it to the alternative, how I'm feeling now--vulnerability is something I can learn to live with, being fat and feeling like a pariah is not. 12/28/2005 the journey begins...the journey to a newer, healthier, more fit way of life

[2big4mysize]

Re: Sweets don't lessen the hurt...time, patience, love and commitment do!

welcome back to ADBB abd to Atkins.

Print out several copies of your post and keep them near where you consume food and in your purse or pockets. Then if you are even thinking about cheating reread it and decide if you really want that cheating food and the what iffs or the healthier smaller you. it should be a very motivatiing piece for you. Stick it in your Atkins emergency kit too.

Woo hoo on that triathlon. be sure you join the exercise challenges they are all open and you can get lots of motivation for the days when you just don't want to work out.

Happy low carbing.