Sooooooooooo disgusted with myself

[darn75]

I am so angry with myself - I did this 2.5 years ago with no problems but have gained all the weight back. I've tried again and again but always make excuses why I can't stick with it - yeah, yeah, yeah - well, I am FINALLY so disgusted with myself right now, I am going to do this again and stick with it. I don't know why it's so hard this time, maybe because my heart hasn't really been into it, but right now with no clothes that fit well and just generally feeling sloppy, etc. I am disgusted with myself big time! So, at 1 pm today, I started induction - no sense waiting til tomorrow, start now. I have a trip planned to leave March 3 so I'm hoping I can lose at least 10 if not more lbs. by then. One day at a time - but I WILL do this!

[knicknack]

Re: Sooooooooooo disgusted with myself

Hi darn... welcome back! If you did it before you can definitely do it again. Good to have you with us!

[changing]

Re: Sooooooooooo disgusted with myself

darn, I was in your shoes when I jumped back on the wagon a month ago. I think, for me, I was too focused on the numbers... one thing that has helped me stick with it this time (and I hope for good--I really want to acheive lifetime maintenance) is appreciating every day that I wake up and my clothes aren't tighter. Before, when I was gaining weight, I felt my clothes get tighter every day.


Thank goodness for the second time around--you'll have great success if you just get into a positive frame of mind and stay there.

[Discolemonade]

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Welcome back Deb! we all know how you feel and what you are going through! YOU are the only one who can do this for you. And I think you want it, so jump up on this wagon and stay awhile! This is my 15th try, lol...well, maybe not that many but it sure feels that way....best of luck to you and YOU CAN DO THIS!!! You are the boss of what goes into your mouth, YOU are held accountable. That makes it personal and that makes it doable. I look forward to seeing you shrink!!

xoxo
DISCO

[kellygirl2]

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Hi, Deb, so glad you are here! You have the tools to do this, so go for it!

We just started a new exercise challenge #24 last Sunday. Would you like to join us? You just post how many days you want to exercise a week, your start weight, and measurements and post each day. You pick your choice of exercise and how much you do and post it each day or post a rest day. The accountability really has helped me.

Look forward to reading your posts!

[Chris]

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So, at 1 pm today, I started induction - no sense waiting til tomorrow, start now.

Now, keep up that kind of attitude, and you're certain to succeed!

[BeccaResRN]

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I total understand being disgusted with yourself for weight gain. I felt like that too, I felt like kicking my own butt. I got to goal then suffered some sort of brain freeze and forgot all my hard work and how happy and energertic I am when I am carrying less fat. My work pants were like sausage casings about to burst at the seams before I finally could decided that I could get back on track!!!

But I am over being mad at myself and try to think positively and be glad I came to my senses now rather than 5 years or 10 years down the road. I can only imagine how large I would be as I just gain at a steady rate when I am off plan. I once gained 20 pounds in 21 days!!!

[darn75]

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Thanks for the encouragement! I did great the first week - lost 5 lbs. - who cares if it's water, it's lbs!!!!! However, yesterday - I hate weekends! - I ate things I shouldn't have so will continue on today as though I didn't - I'm not going to let it get me down. I only have 15 lbs. to lose and I am going to do it!

I did the same thing as you Becca - I don't know why I didn't remember how good I felt when I weighed less, but I do not and I'm going to get there again! Plus - ok this is showing my age! - when I eat what I shouldn't I have lots of "power surges" go thru my body and I hate those; when I eat very low carbs, I have very few and that's so much more comfortable! Wish I'd remember these things when I'm tempted, but I will eventually.

Today I'm painting ceilings and keeping myselsf busy so I"ll be too busy to do what I did yesterday with the food.