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What a trip!!
Every year my theatre does an annual benefit performance where we re-visit scenes and musical numbers from the shows we did this past season. Tonight we worked on numbers from Sweet Charity.
We watched the video first and when I saw myself, I really realized how far I have come since May. I gasped. It was truly my highest weight.. 400+.When I see myself now I know that I have a long way to go, but I also do not see that 400+ lb. person any longer either.
Then we worked on this number that we did during the show and I can remember all of the difficulty that it took to just lumber about the stage during it. I found so much joy in being able to execute the moves and sing the notes with agility that I didnt have before.
This WOE is such a blessing to me. I could never have this kind of contented happiness that I have found in the self-comparison I did tonight.
Why am I always so ready to compare myself to the thinner, more athletic person that I was 20 years ago rather than compare myself to the person I was 8 months ago,before Atkins? I really think this is a lesson I need to learn.
We watched the video first and when I saw myself, I really realized how far I have come since May. I gasped. It was truly my highest weight.. 400+.When I see myself now I know that I have a long way to go, but I also do not see that 400+ lb. person any longer either.
Then we worked on this number that we did during the show and I can remember all of the difficulty that it took to just lumber about the stage during it. I found so much joy in being able to execute the moves and sing the notes with agility that I didnt have before.
This WOE is such a blessing to me. I could never have this kind of contented happiness that I have found in the self-comparison I did tonight.
Why am I always so ready to compare myself to the thinner, more athletic person that I was 20 years ago rather than compare myself to the person I was 8 months ago,before Atkins? I really think this is a lesson I need to learn.
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