im ashamed but im back!!!!

[bigjay328]

well here is my entire story! in the past 4 years ive gained over 1oo pounds! im now 348 pounds. THIS WAS MY FORMER WEIGHT BUT IN 2001 I LOST 110 POUNDS ON THE ATKINS WOE. I have really hit major depression in the last year for many reasons. I have been diagnosed with compulsive addidictive eating and it has a lot to do with my historty. I lost my son back in 2005 and i have not been rite since. My girlfriend is now 27 weeks and everything is fine so far exept me.. Im 35 years old i sleep all day i hate going outside and everything around me seems miserable. I have done atkins many times since gaining back weight but never stuck to the plan! just a month ago i lost 20 pounds but here i am again at my highest weight ever!!!!! I went for emergency bloodwork today because i am giving this my all and i want to know where i stand!!!!! im borderline hypertension, major back problems high cholesterol all at 35. The sad thing is i was a 3 letter man in high school and did play basketball at the college level!!! it seems like my life came to an extreme halt about 10 years ago!!!! major panic attacks, depression and its been with me ever since.. The year of 2001 on atkins i felt great and got down to 238.. im very embarrassed to keep coming on this board but i need help. I am starting atkins today and am going to post my bloodwork results tommorow, my doc said he will have them in the morning. I just want my life back and this is a major step in getting in back!!!! thanks all for your ear...

jason

[wannabethintoo]

Re: im ashamed but im back!!!!

Welcome back Jason. No need to feel embarassed. We all know what it's like.

[Richt]

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Welcome back Jason. No need to feel embarassed. We all know what it's like.

Ditto to that!

Welcome back Jason, this time its for keeps!?

Rich

[Elizellen]

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Welcome back Jason

[Gala]

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Welcome back jason

don't feel ashamed
you've already took the first big step in deciding to pick yourself up and get ready to fight this battle again
you know you can do it and you know you will find pllenty of support, encouragement, motivation, inspiration in here
you are not alone
I am re-starting induction from tomorrow too
let's do it together
l

[Sirine]

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WELCOME BACK

No one is here to judge you, I just came back for the fourth time. This site is made for us to help eachother, especially during our worst times!!!! Congrats to you for not giving up on yourself

[sombersusie]

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welcome big jay! I hope you will continue to visit us throughout your journey. Just take it one day at a time, one meal at a time. When you're frustrated, we're here, when you've lost 10lbs and gotta tell someone, we'll be here! This place has been great for keeping me on track this time around. After all how can i be cheating if im telling everyone else not to? P.S. stay away from the evil franken foods! Good luck to ya!

[LOWCARBINCLEVELANDOH]

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we're all here for you. you should be proud that you have the courage to be so honest!

[Binsk]

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Welcome back Jason. Come here for support when you're feeling overwhelmed, and come here for support when you want to rejoice your successes, just come here often.

[MaizieMarley]

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Welcome Back! Sounds like you had a lot going on in your life - no need to be embarrassed! You should feel proud that you are strong enough to admit you need help. Congratulations on making the effort! Good luck!

[mcotton]

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Welcome back Jay! You are right where you need to be...and that is here with us. I am a returning person too who fell off the wagon. I am on my 3rd day of induction and doing well. I know what the emabarssment and guilt and shame feels like as well. Now that you know what it feels like...step off the path of self punishment and hold your head up and have faith in yourself that you are going to succeed in becoming the man you desire to be.
It is so easy to keep beating ourselves up for our down falls and short comings and then lick our wounds with food. You can do this. You did it before and you will again. You have a bunch of wonderful people here to help you. If you need a buddie, I will be more than happy to email you and encourage you, kick you in the butt when you need it and tell you great job too as you progress. Send me a private message if you want and I will give you my email. I am just starting back and it is rough, but I know it is one day at a time and I am not looking back.
It is wonderful you chose to come back.

[NickyD]

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You're in the right place Jason, and you've already overcome the biggest hurdle, deciding to start the Atkins WOL again. My best wishes!!
N

[RationalBeing]

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Don't worry, we're all ashamed of ourselves here! Heh, but ADBB is theraputic, a way to work through it and become proud Stick with us and in a year you'll be thin and happier!